The winds that blow remind me of what has been and what can never be...
uuuuuuggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
today is IN MY WAY
one day until the weekend...
i have so much to do today, and i just don't want to, at all...
so, i'm not really sure whats going on w/ my friends.. beth and i were talking today, well -- right now actually -- and i just don't know why they feel like we have to do all the work in the friendship. i mean, its not like we can pick up and leave anytime we want to and take a few hour trip to wherever they may be...but they expect us to but when they're near us -- they don't even get in touch w/ us until they're back at home and are like "oh yeah, i was near you today" -- well why the hell didn't you stop and say hi?!
whatever.
i really feel for you, beth...i really do --- this girl has got so much going on for her right now. I LOVE YOU!!! NOS :o)
only a few more days until the year is over. i'm kind of scared, i don't know what to think about it ending. i'm going to miss all of my friends SO much..i don't know if i can deal...
hopefully i'll get a plane ticket to florida soon, so i can at least see ONE of my friends over the summer...
i'm scared about living on campus next year -- i've always had my freedom to do whatever i wanted, and now i'm going to have a lot of rules to abide by, i'm not sure how i feel about that yet...but i guess whatever is best for me, meaning - whatever God wants me to do and i feel like i need to live on campus. maybe just so i'll get my act together.
anyway, i love military boys -- why are all the good, gentlemanly guys with morals and values in freakin IRAQ? its not fair -- i know a few a-holes that need to go over there so the sweet ones can come back and be my husband...
really though - i hate the military, it takes my friends from me, ships them to a country and conflict and then i have to worry about their safety -- it scares the life outta me
whatever to that too...
so here are the million things i have to do today:
paint the foundation of the house (because i'm a good kid)
read a whole book just about then write a 5 page paper on it
clean my room
read for theology
study for math
bleh -- tomorrow is friday --- i just have to remind myself of that to get me through the rest of the day....
today is IN MY WAY
one day until the weekend...
i have so much to do today, and i just don't want to, at all...
so, i'm not really sure whats going on w/ my friends.. beth and i were talking today, well -- right now actually -- and i just don't know why they feel like we have to do all the work in the friendship. i mean, its not like we can pick up and leave anytime we want to and take a few hour trip to wherever they may be...but they expect us to but when they're near us -- they don't even get in touch w/ us until they're back at home and are like "oh yeah, i was near you today" -- well why the hell didn't you stop and say hi?!
whatever.
i really feel for you, beth...i really do --- this girl has got so much going on for her right now. I LOVE YOU!!! NOS :o)
only a few more days until the year is over. i'm kind of scared, i don't know what to think about it ending. i'm going to miss all of my friends SO much..i don't know if i can deal...
hopefully i'll get a plane ticket to florida soon, so i can at least see ONE of my friends over the summer...
i'm scared about living on campus next year -- i've always had my freedom to do whatever i wanted, and now i'm going to have a lot of rules to abide by, i'm not sure how i feel about that yet...but i guess whatever is best for me, meaning - whatever God wants me to do and i feel like i need to live on campus. maybe just so i'll get my act together.
anyway, i love military boys -- why are all the good, gentlemanly guys with morals and values in freakin IRAQ? its not fair -- i know a few a-holes that need to go over there so the sweet ones can come back and be my husband...
really though - i hate the military, it takes my friends from me, ships them to a country and conflict and then i have to worry about their safety -- it scares the life outta me
whatever to that too...
so here are the million things i have to do today:
paint the foundation of the house (because i'm a good kid)
read a whole book just about then write a 5 page paper on it
clean my room
read for theology
study for math
bleh -- tomorrow is friday --- i just have to remind myself of that to get me through the rest of the day....