WIll he ever F-ing go AWAY!?
So lastnight I hung out with some of my really good friends! WE went for a walk and took the time to enjoy the weather...which wasnt so nice after all. So then I went home and decided that Id run to blow off some anger...Cory called me and pissed me off....anyway...so before I knew it I ran a total of 4 miles. I was sooo f-ing worn out! So Im at home...stuff is eatin me up and I call Chris to talk for a bit...he was asleep. So i was like whatever...Ill call him tomorrow! So then Brad calls me and we talk for a bit, but I just wanted to talk to *$&. Well as Im getting off the phone It beeps Caller ID Block...Then instantly Im like HELL YEA! Cause I thought it was one of my closer growing friends. I can talk to him and relate and I knew that I could just release and he wouldnt think I was retarded because he knows what im goin thru. So I answer the phone..."Hey whats up Babe?!" only to here a very faint "Hey" Then Iwas like"omgoodness, whats wrong?' And he was like "what?" Then I knew it wasnt *&$! I was like who the fuck is this...."Its me"...yep Cory! I was so f-ing pissed...so now i have to be carefull when i answer the phone when it says caller id block. So i argued with him for a little bit and told him that i want him completely out of my life and he was all like "No Mikaya, I dont want it to end this way...blah blah blah, we're supposed to get back together..blah blah blah" So finally i hung up just balling and he called back so i pick it up an everything was repeated over and over again. I got off the phone for the last time and just lost it. Why I feel this way Im not sure. But I f-ing cried myself to sleep, I finally have realized exactly why Ive been like I have been for the last few days...this morning I weighed in at 123. Just what i want to happen, but I cant eat, all I do is run and take dieting shit...its getting crazy and I need for it to stop. So Im hoping that my friend calls me today or tonight...cause I just really want to talk to him. When he calls everything get 10xs better and I love hearing what he has to say. He always has great input. So I'll hope for the best! But Im done, cause Corys bitchy girlfriend has prolly written me back with something meaningless to say! Like I care. Do you like that Amy? HAHAHA!!!!