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So, im writing a book its going be called LOVE and uts going to take me years and years to finish.
i was going to write a chapter about each of my friends and why i love then and the memories we had, but sadly there wasnt enough memories to jot down. i became aware of how much i have been hurt by them, that would fill the chapters but its not what i was going for. so i am going to be writing each chapter of friends in my life that i love in order from when i knew how to love someone and so on until the end of the chapter, i hope the last chapter is how amazing my life has changed since 04 its probably going to be in 2015 by then. i decided to write this book when i went through my old thoughts and poems i would write when i would get grounded every other week lol. i was soo deppressed and smart, i knew too much at a young age. i know i cant love everyone the way i want to because i dont have the money right now or ever to support them, and because i dont think it would be possible to be there for everyone i love, thats a shit load of people and im soo sure that a lot of those people dont even care about me. i just see a lot in people, it kills me to see them drift away. i want to stay close with everyone in my life til the day i die, i just wish more people would agree.
Also, i'm just still wishing for a day to go by where i dont feel any pain what so ever....
i was going to write a chapter about each of my friends and why i love then and the memories we had, but sadly there wasnt enough memories to jot down. i became aware of how much i have been hurt by them, that would fill the chapters but its not what i was going for. so i am going to be writing each chapter of friends in my life that i love in order from when i knew how to love someone and so on until the end of the chapter, i hope the last chapter is how amazing my life has changed since 04 its probably going to be in 2015 by then. i decided to write this book when i went through my old thoughts and poems i would write when i would get grounded every other week lol. i was soo deppressed and smart, i knew too much at a young age. i know i cant love everyone the way i want to because i dont have the money right now or ever to support them, and because i dont think it would be possible to be there for everyone i love, thats a shit load of people and im soo sure that a lot of those people dont even care about me. i just see a lot in people, it kills me to see them drift away. i want to stay close with everyone in my life til the day i die, i just wish more people would agree.
Also, i'm just still wishing for a day to go by where i dont feel any pain what so ever....