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Soo for spanish..we had to write a 100 word essay on what our frame of support is..and what tears us down. I was actually proud of mine. This is what I'm turning in..so I'm not positive that everything's right..but it's pretty close--
Por tres meses mi cabeza tenía doler. No sé porqué. Yo tenía ver muchos doctores en tres meses. Pero ellos no esta ayundandome. Yo fue en el hospital por cuatro días. Yo tenía muchos prueba de mi cabeza. Yo estoy muy frustra. Yo estoy enfermo prácticament todo los días. Mi familia y mis amigos me soportan muchos. Mi madre me ayuda mucho. Ella escucha cuando me quejo y ella me conforta cuando yo lloro. Muchas personas no comprenden y ellos me destruen. Ellos piensan yo lo estoy falseando para la atención. A veces estas personas me duelen más que mi cabeza me duele. Pero con la soporta de mi madre y los otros miembros de mi familia y mis amigos fieles yo estaré sano.
Translation: For 3 months, my head has hurt. I don't know why. I have seen many doctors in 3 months. But they are not helping me. I was in the hospital for 4 days. I had many tests done of my head. I am very frustrated. I am sick practically every day. My family and my friends support me a lot. My mom helps me alot. She listens when I complain, and she comforts me when I cry. Many people DON'T understand and they destroy me. They think I am faking it for the attention. Sometimes these people hurt me MORE than my head hurts me. But with the support of my mom and my other family members and my tRUe friends I will be strong.
I went to Dr. Midian again today. He looked at my MRI of my neck..and pointed out my neck is straight..unusual because a normal neck is curved. He told me I have degenitive disk disease..so like my disks in my neck are desinigrating? Hm so I could possibly have arthristis in my neck when I am older. But that doesn't really have much to do w/ my headaches I suppose..except that I have a lot of tight muscles in my neck..so my mom has to massage them. But um he thinks my headaches have to do w/ my vasculitis..which I guess plays into my raynauds phenominon..where I don't get enough blood circulation to my hands and such. And he referred me to this doctor at the American Migraine Center in Cleveland..and he said that because I am a vasculitis patient, I'm a special case and they'll have to run tests. And I'm not allowed to dance until I see this new doctor and see what she says. But when I got home..my mom called to make me an appointment and the nurse says the dr only sees patients that are over 18..and that she'd be happy to make my appointment for after my 18th birthday which is November 3rd. I find that very dumb becuase I don't see what will be so different about me on November 4th..that they have to wait until I'm 18. I could see the reasoning if I was 15 or something..but I'm only 7ish months away. I'm just so frustrated because this is affecting my life..it just seems like it's never going to go back to normal. And I'd just like to say..to those of you that think I want a pity party, sympathy or attention..YOU COULDN'T BE MORE WRONG. You just have no idea how I feel..it's hard when no one understands. And if you think I write all this shit for sympathy, etc..you're wrong again. I need this stupid journal more than ever..cuz I can't keep this all bottled up inside.