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It's finally break! :D Here's how this week went..
School was a joke allllll week..that's all :)
Dance--Monday we had our senior company gift exchange. Ana lovedddd the "Ballerinas..we go COMMANDO!" shirt..and I loved that she loved it :D haha it was a goood nite. Tuesday class was good and rehearsal was a joke..but that's okay. Thursday I was real sore..but Jakey was back! :D Ahhh I seriously missed that kid sooo much--even though I talk to him practically everyday because talking to him is like my therapy and the only way I can get through some days :x :\ Tonite we had our last dress rehearsal. Andd it went average. We are dancing w/ the dancers from the Miller South School for the Visual and Performing Arts..and we only do it because the grant people like to see combining school performances so we get more grant money..no one really likes it. Ahh but when I came out in my Arabian costume..which is like a top that only covers my chest w/ see through fluffy (?) sleeves and spankie type bottoms w/ the same kind of pant legs as my sleeves (and I realize the way I just described it..makes it seem real skany..but it's relaly not..it's cute..but anyways..) when I came out..this girl goes "dang that's hott"..and I turned around and she goes "I loooooove your outfit". Uhh I was kinda creeped out :\ We got done around 9--amazing..so Sara and I got some fast food..stopped at Walmart and that was that.
Hmm I miss Jeff. I haven't gotten to see or talk to him in awhile :\ All the poor boy does is wrestle and sleep..I couldn't imagine not eating and then doing something as physically exhausting as wrestling..I gotta give him credit..I couldn't do it. It's hard..but I'm def trying to be understanding and patient and just holding on..waiting..we'll see how this goes..
Speaking of not eating..both Jakey and Mrs. T thought I lost weight? Hm def haven't..but I don't know..is it weird/bad if when people say it looks like I lost weight..I take it kind of as a compliment? I mean, I'm definetely not trying to..if I tried to lose weight I'd end up sick again-with that dumb stomach acid thing..I have to eat. But yeah..
I'd just like to say I absolutely love everyone from dance. I've realized during this Nutcracker season, I am soo amazingly lucky. I have soo many mother figures.. Of course I have my..mom..haha but Mrs. T, Mrs. Palija, Mrs. Binkerd, Mrs. Gillette(even though she's not there as much anymore since Meghan graduated!) and Mrs. Stygar are just as much moms to me as my mom. I love them toooo death! They help out soo much..especially Mrs. T, I can talk to her about anything! Then of course there's all my girls..and even though there's times we all want to kill one another..we all are like a huge family. I mean, it's a common fact that girls that are around each other alot have the same menstrual cycle..so just think-we are around each other practically 24/7..so just think about like 10 girls all PMSing at the same time..hahahah that's the only way I can describe some of the days we have together. But I don't think I could live without any of them..even the ones that cause me to go crazzzzy occasionally! Even all the little kids..in Junior company and younger..they can be annoying of course..they are still pretty immature at times..but they are still like family too. And it's amazing how much they look up to you. It's hard to believe that I am one of the "big kids" now..it wasn't too long ago that I was looking up to Jill, Theresa, Shannon, and all those other amazing "big kids"..now, I'm the one that the younger ones are looking at. I've just come so far..it's kind of hard to believe. Next year will be my last one. Ohh my gosh..I'm going to miss it soo much. I've been with some of these people for such a long time..it will be soooo hard to leave them all. I mean, I've been in company since 7th grade! Now..it wasn't until last year, that I was actually close to the people graduating (Jakey, Meghan, Lisa, Rebecca) and it was emotional at rectial last year..ahah I was a wreck..for that reason (and some others :x aha) But next year, that's going to be me..and the people around me..the ones I am leaving behind..are going to be where I was last year. Oh gosh..Kira. We've been through soo much..I can't imagine what we are going to be like when I graduate. Atleast with Sara..we'll be leaving together..but Kira, she'll still have another year after I leave. Ya know..I may not be as great in dance as I dreamed I would be..I won't be Sugar Plum..possibly not even Snow Queen..and before I was upset about that..but ya know..look at how much dance has given me. It's amazing..
I can't even explain to you [[how much]] I love everyone there..
and [[how much]] I love doing this..
you just couldn't even begin to imagine....