more rambling
Yish!!!!! I started True Selves today!!! thank you Open_palm, I owe you one!
so yeah I'm thinking I might just pull a I dissapear for like a week and leave it for my mum to read... and maybe she'll stop being so denial like and just let me be me... it may take a lil longer than I anticipated to read butthe "I disappear" plan won't go into effect till I'm done reading it first anyways... I'm just gonna start pulling out all my 'stops' this year. I'm sick of being stuck in the middle. all or nothing.
really interesting reading thus so far, allready through 22 pages in about an hour and a half!! I'm a quick reader.
I'm pretty sure that Dunks is going to hire me at this point so another plus for me... not gonna get my hopes up completely though cuz I tend to get ahead of myself when I do.
Breath in
Breath out
and thats what its all about. one thing at a time.
I'm in like total Bubbles mode again!!
still haven't started my PCDI course for nutrition yet ::sigh:: but I'm gonna do it, I have to.. for myself.
screw doing the 'if' thing anymore, as quoted by Yoda "try or try not, there is no... do or do not" or something to that effect... I haven't seeen that movie in ages.
I'm all into writing lately. I'm pushing myself. Asserting that which is my way of keeping my head above the water. positive Ideas and thinking fluidly.
I made lil posters with a bunch of Zenisms on them and hung them around the top of my room...
...too bad I can't read them without my glasses. I'm such a dumbass for losing them! sish!!
Ok, I'm sure your all like "wow she is rambling on and won't shut up!" don'r blame you... I'm just really starting to want to be one with myself, mind and body, that I'm just exploding with thoughts and I'm going for it
so yeah I'm thinking I might just pull a I dissapear for like a week and leave it for my mum to read... and maybe she'll stop being so denial like and just let me be me... it may take a lil longer than I anticipated to read butthe "I disappear" plan won't go into effect till I'm done reading it first anyways... I'm just gonna start pulling out all my 'stops' this year. I'm sick of being stuck in the middle. all or nothing.
really interesting reading thus so far, allready through 22 pages in about an hour and a half!! I'm a quick reader.
I'm pretty sure that Dunks is going to hire me at this point so another plus for me... not gonna get my hopes up completely though cuz I tend to get ahead of myself when I do.
Breath in
Breath out
and thats what its all about. one thing at a time.
I'm in like total Bubbles mode again!!
still haven't started my PCDI course for nutrition yet ::sigh:: but I'm gonna do it, I have to.. for myself.
screw doing the 'if' thing anymore, as quoted by Yoda "try or try not, there is no... do or do not" or something to that effect... I haven't seeen that movie in ages.
I'm all into writing lately. I'm pushing myself. Asserting that which is my way of keeping my head above the water. positive Ideas and thinking fluidly.
I made lil posters with a bunch of Zenisms on them and hung them around the top of my room...
...too bad I can't read them without my glasses. I'm such a dumbass for losing them! sish!!
Ok, I'm sure your all like "wow she is rambling on and won't shut up!" don'r blame you... I'm just really starting to want to be one with myself, mind and body, that I'm just exploding with thoughts and I'm going for it