cunt.
i broke up with phil.
i'm feeling kinda okay.
but i'm worried about him a lot.
the last relationship that ended like this was with george. and he still hates my guts for what i put him through.
i actually received some clarity today. i'm a fucking shit bag.
it goes like this..
"Dude, do you even realize what you put me through? i was so ignorant. i would've sworn you were perfect for me and i loved you. i think i needed you 'cause you hurt me and that's how it always goes. You just had to keep coming back. Like two years ago. And i really wanted to try things again then. Then, last year, i know you wanted me again in your life. Every year, i know it happens. i don't know if you do this to everyone, or if it's just me."
for some reason, i forgive everyone for everything shitty that they do.
but i don't understand why i think anyone else will do that for me.
i'm a really terrible person.
i hope everyone knows that.
i'm feeling kinda okay.
but i'm worried about him a lot.
the last relationship that ended like this was with george. and he still hates my guts for what i put him through.
i actually received some clarity today. i'm a fucking shit bag.
it goes like this..
"Dude, do you even realize what you put me through? i was so ignorant. i would've sworn you were perfect for me and i loved you. i think i needed you 'cause you hurt me and that's how it always goes. You just had to keep coming back. Like two years ago. And i really wanted to try things again then. Then, last year, i know you wanted me again in your life. Every year, i know it happens. i don't know if you do this to everyone, or if it's just me."
for some reason, i forgive everyone for everything shitty that they do.
but i don't understand why i think anyone else will do that for me.
i'm a really terrible person.
i hope everyone knows that.