A mad obsession - *Is broken*.
First of all, I'm kinda pissed off at LJ because I want to use more than 15 icons and I refuse to pay for an account!
Hello, dear flist, I know I should post more often since I'm not at the university and I have plenty of time to update this journal with some facts of my uninteresting, shitty life.
So.
I've rediscovered a problem with me and it is that I kinda get a little bit obsessed with things. So obsessed it goes beyond the sane, sometimes... well, it's not that I stop eating or sleeping except for last night because I was up till 3 am, reading, though ^^U while I'm obsessed with something, what I'm saying is that I focus so much on the matter that it suddenly becomes the only thing I focus on. It has happened before. I remember obsessing about Dragon Ball Z fanfics back in high school... well it didn't interfere much with my studies, though sometimes it did, because I studied with day light and at night I dedicated to my hobby. But it was notable that I spent maybe too much time thinking about DBZ fanfics. So notable that my grandmother started ranting about it - because it was a waste of time, because it wasn't a productive activity, because I should be studying instead of reading and writing crap so I could be the best of my class, because I should spend more time with my family, because I should spend that time exploiting my drawing skills, because I was taking too seriously something that wasn't real, because I should grow up, blah - and before it became a problem in my house I started hiding my obsession from my family, so I hid to read and write... it wasn't that bad and it was partially over, eventually.
Then I obsessed over Russian history and literature... yeah, an academic obsession because I'm a nerd :P. It started with me being the teacher of Russian history in high school, passed through me being the winner of a drawing contest based on Pushkin's The Captain's Daughter and ended with my graduating thesis on Dostoevsky's Memoirs from the House of The Dead. I'd say my last two years of high school were very Russian and I'd also say that some traits of my obsession are still there... hey! I still enjoy to pieces Russian literature and I try to read as much as I can, I also like to impress people with some knowledge on Russian history and I want so bad to learn Russian!
I obsessed about Michael Owen - spent a shameful amount of time with the 2002 Michael Owen calendar hanged up the wall and even a more shameful amount of time hugging and smelling my Off the Record autographed copy, just because it had been touched by Michael Owen's hands, wondering if it still had his scent -, Jamie Bamber - I somehow felt proud of myself for having a platonic crush with someone who graduated with honors from Cambridge... honestly, wtf? - and I think I kinda obsessed about the platonic loves I've actually met... Yeah, it freaks me out too.
I obsessed about Evangelion... actually I've obsessed about that like three different times: when I first watched it in high school, when the Pastu infected me with his own obsession and when I found out about the Rebuild movies. My mother is an intelligent woman for not letting me use her credit card because I would have already used it mostly in Eva merchandise, buying all over the world O_o.
Hmm... maybe this post has gotten a little bit far more serious that I thought it'd be ^^U... Those and others I'm missing right now have been major obsessions. Now, this post was about my current obsession. It's not too serious, I hope... and I hope also that it'll come into rational terms soon.
What surprises me about it is that it came suddenly, boredom and curiosity's fault because it's a conspiracy, without previous introduction to the subject and it has grown vastly in just a week. I'm talking about the whole Zemyx thing.
Actually it didn't start with Zemyx itself... I think it started finding a Christmasy Kingdom Hearts - Organization XIII fanart at DA that made me laugh, maybe this one (http://imagec0rrupt3d.deviantart.com/art/KHII-Whose-Tush-60394595), which, as a matter of fact, features Xigbar/Demyx and Lexaeus/Zexion, not Zemyx. Of course, I watched/read more fanarts at DA, learning amazing things like the Xemnas = Mansex joke... but there were some things I didn't understand because I've never played, though I plan to do so, so I made a rigorous, huge-ass research on Kingdom Hearts and I fell in love with it. Dammit, I feel like I'm not a good fan because I haven't played the games, but I made sure to learn what's left about the KH universe on the internetz so I could enjoy the fanart I was looking at. I was enjoying myself with the KH fandom... actually, a few posts ago I said something like "XigDem ftw!"... hehe, I still like it, but that kinda changed in the last week.
Everything worsened when I started looking for Genshiken fanfics at FF.net and found almost nothing, so I started reading some KH fics and found some good stuff and some remarkable stuff, mostly among
dual_avi's fics... Yeah, fortunately she has an LJ account where she posts even more fanfics! Her OTP's Zemyx and, although I had already started falling in love with the pairing, her fanfic Shout! (here: http://dual-avi.livejournal.com/41286.html) converted me.
So far, everything I've written here's pretty normal for an otaku... now... I've spent five days reading Zemyx fics like a maniac, I started drawing some Zemyx fanart, although both, Demyx and Zexion's hair are a royal pain in the ass to draw... well, at least I'm done with Dem, I'm planning an Orgy XIII fanart for my agenda and I have a new selfmade Zexion icon! *points at the icon*. That's still normal... a little bit obsessive but normal.
Today I went to have lunch at Wok and even though I didn't want to get out of my house because it is that time of the month... no further explanation needed. So I was eating my sushi and drinking my mango creme and a family arrived and they sat in front of us, among them two guys that caught my attention: one of them was tall, a familiar hairstyle on dirty-blond hair, green-ish eyes and was wearing an aquamarine t-shirt... the other was smaller, dark colored hair, some of it falling over his forehead and covering partially one of his eyes, he was wearing a black outfit... I almost choked with my mango creme. I mean, it was normal, they were probably cousins and they weren't even talking to eachother, but all I could think of was "OMG! ZEMYX!"... That's not normal. My KH-OrgyXIII-Zemyx!fangirliness has taken over me and I'm already seeing things on the street...
It's 12:19 am, iTunes is playing Natasha Bedingfield's I wanna have your babies which, I think, suits very well this post, and I'm off.
Hello, dear flist, I know I should post more often since I'm not at the university and I have plenty of time to update this journal with some facts of my uninteresting, shitty life.
So.
I've rediscovered a problem with me and it is that I kinda get a little bit obsessed with things. So obsessed it goes beyond the sane, sometimes... well, it's not that I stop eating or sleeping except for last night because I was up till 3 am, reading, though ^^U while I'm obsessed with something, what I'm saying is that I focus so much on the matter that it suddenly becomes the only thing I focus on. It has happened before. I remember obsessing about Dragon Ball Z fanfics back in high school... well it didn't interfere much with my studies, though sometimes it did, because I studied with day light and at night I dedicated to my hobby. But it was notable that I spent maybe too much time thinking about DBZ fanfics. So notable that my grandmother started ranting about it - because it was a waste of time, because it wasn't a productive activity, because I should be studying instead of reading and writing crap so I could be the best of my class, because I should spend more time with my family, because I should spend that time exploiting my drawing skills, because I was taking too seriously something that wasn't real, because I should grow up, blah - and before it became a problem in my house I started hiding my obsession from my family, so I hid to read and write... it wasn't that bad and it was partially over, eventually.
Then I obsessed over Russian history and literature... yeah, an academic obsession because I'm a nerd :P. It started with me being the teacher of Russian history in high school, passed through me being the winner of a drawing contest based on Pushkin's The Captain's Daughter and ended with my graduating thesis on Dostoevsky's Memoirs from the House of The Dead. I'd say my last two years of high school were very Russian and I'd also say that some traits of my obsession are still there... hey! I still enjoy to pieces Russian literature and I try to read as much as I can, I also like to impress people with some knowledge on Russian history and I want so bad to learn Russian!
I obsessed about Michael Owen - spent a shameful amount of time with the 2002 Michael Owen calendar hanged up the wall and even a more shameful amount of time hugging and smelling my Off the Record autographed copy, just because it had been touched by Michael Owen's hands, wondering if it still had his scent -, Jamie Bamber - I somehow felt proud of myself for having a platonic crush with someone who graduated with honors from Cambridge... honestly, wtf? - and I think I kinda obsessed about the platonic loves I've actually met... Yeah, it freaks me out too.
I obsessed about Evangelion... actually I've obsessed about that like three different times: when I first watched it in high school, when the Pastu infected me with his own obsession and when I found out about the Rebuild movies. My mother is an intelligent woman for not letting me use her credit card because I would have already used it mostly in Eva merchandise, buying all over the world O_o.
Hmm... maybe this post has gotten a little bit far more serious that I thought it'd be ^^U... Those and others I'm missing right now have been major obsessions. Now, this post was about my current obsession. It's not too serious, I hope... and I hope also that it'll come into rational terms soon.
What surprises me about it is that it came suddenly, boredom and curiosity's fault because it's a conspiracy, without previous introduction to the subject and it has grown vastly in just a week. I'm talking about the whole Zemyx thing.
Actually it didn't start with Zemyx itself... I think it started finding a Christmasy Kingdom Hearts - Organization XIII fanart at DA that made me laugh, maybe this one (http://imagec0rrupt3d.deviantart.com/art/KHII-Whose-Tush-60394595), which, as a matter of fact, features Xigbar/Demyx and Lexaeus/Zexion, not Zemyx. Of course, I watched/read more fanarts at DA, learning amazing things like the Xemnas = Mansex joke... but there were some things I didn't understand because I've never played, though I plan to do so, so I made a rigorous, huge-ass research on Kingdom Hearts and I fell in love with it. Dammit, I feel like I'm not a good fan because I haven't played the games, but I made sure to learn what's left about the KH universe on the internetz so I could enjoy the fanart I was looking at. I was enjoying myself with the KH fandom... actually, a few posts ago I said something like "XigDem ftw!"... hehe, I still like it, but that kinda changed in the last week.
Everything worsened when I started looking for Genshiken fanfics at FF.net and found almost nothing, so I started reading some KH fics and found some good stuff and some remarkable stuff, mostly among
dual_avi's fics... Yeah, fortunately she has an LJ account where she posts even more fanfics! Her OTP's Zemyx and, although I had already started falling in love with the pairing, her fanfic Shout! (here: http://dual-avi.livejournal.com/41286.html) converted me.
So far, everything I've written here's pretty normal for an otaku... now... I've spent five days reading Zemyx fics like a maniac, I started drawing some Zemyx fanart, although both, Demyx and Zexion's hair are a royal pain in the ass to draw... well, at least I'm done with Dem, I'm planning an Orgy XIII fanart for my agenda and I have a new selfmade Zexion icon! *points at the icon*. That's still normal... a little bit obsessive but normal.
Today I went to have lunch at Wok and even though I didn't want to get out of my house because it is that time of the month... no further explanation needed. So I was eating my sushi and drinking my mango creme and a family arrived and they sat in front of us, among them two guys that caught my attention: one of them was tall, a familiar hairstyle on dirty-blond hair, green-ish eyes and was wearing an aquamarine t-shirt... the other was smaller, dark colored hair, some of it falling over his forehead and covering partially one of his eyes, he was wearing a black outfit... I almost choked with my mango creme. I mean, it was normal, they were probably cousins and they weren't even talking to eachother, but all I could think of was "OMG! ZEMYX!"... That's not normal. My KH-OrgyXIII-Zemyx!fangirliness has taken over me and I'm already seeing things on the street...
It's 12:19 am, iTunes is playing Natasha Bedingfield's I wanna have your babies which, I think, suits very well this post, and I'm off.