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I'm going to try my best to paragraph as much as I can but I really fail at paragraphing, I'll try my best though :]
I'm in tears and I have been for an hour now, I don't know what's wrong with me :(
I got told today that I get depressed and don't eat and then I get happy because I haven't eaten and I've lost weight and then because I'm happy, I eat and put the weight back on. Then I start all over again. I think that basically sums me up. I'm starting my diet again tomorrow and I will stick to it, I want to loose at the very least 2 stone 13 pounds. Haha, I don't believe I can do it. I watched Supersize Vs. Superskinny today and this guy got told that he could loose 2 stone in a year. I was like 'fucking hell!' I could loose 2 stone in 9-10 weeks. That programme is so silly especially because they make up all of these health problems to make the skinny people fat just because they're jealous of how gorgeous they look. New paragraph :)
My Mother is pissing me off atm. I'm getting so stressed over going to Nottingham and I'm going to have £56 by the time I go. That's £32 for the train and then £18.60 for the hotel which leaves me with £5.40 for food but i'm not going to spend it on food because I'll ruin my diet. I'll end up spending on shit or something. I'm so scared of the train, the longest I have been on a train is the 8mins (or whatever) to the Metrocentre and I'm still scared of trains/metros. I'm also terrified of sleeping in a hotel room by myself and by by myself I mean without my parents who would protect me from the people who break in. Even when I stay in a hotel with my parents I'm awake all night because I'm scared of someone breaking in. Actually it's not hotels, it's just cheap hotels like travel lodges and stuff like that. Like when I go to Florida and stay in the hotel I'll be fine, idk why I'm just a bit crazy.
Jessica and Emma are my favourite people ever atm! The texts they've been sending me today have made me cry so much. I love them both and idk what I'd do without them. It makes me feel like I'm actually wanted when someone tells me they love me and I know that they actually mean it.
Oh I really want a ticket for Hadouken! They're playing in like May or something. I fucking need some money!! Their last gig was one of the best gigs I've ever been to and if I miss this I will be gutted. Like proper.
I've just realised I'm meant to be writing my Sociology coursework since it's the only subject I can do :( I hate how the thing you like you can't do and the other way around. Okay, that made no sense:
I really like English Language- I'm not that good at it.
I actually like Chemistry contrary to what you might think- I'm failing miserably, my highest grade is a U.
Psychology is okay- I'm failing.
I don't like Sociology- I'm doing well!
I've planned all of my outfits I'm taking to Nottingham, I love going away, it's so exciting when you get to plan things like this.
Hardly anyone noticed my hair today who didn't know I was getting it done. There was only Kieron, my English teacher and a few other people lol. So I've came to the conclusion that I don't like my hair anymore :( I wish I could shave it all off and start all over again.
Leave me lovely comments!
I'm in tears and I have been for an hour now, I don't know what's wrong with me :(
I got told today that I get depressed and don't eat and then I get happy because I haven't eaten and I've lost weight and then because I'm happy, I eat and put the weight back on. Then I start all over again. I think that basically sums me up. I'm starting my diet again tomorrow and I will stick to it, I want to loose at the very least 2 stone 13 pounds. Haha, I don't believe I can do it. I watched Supersize Vs. Superskinny today and this guy got told that he could loose 2 stone in a year. I was like 'fucking hell!' I could loose 2 stone in 9-10 weeks. That programme is so silly especially because they make up all of these health problems to make the skinny people fat just because they're jealous of how gorgeous they look. New paragraph :)
My Mother is pissing me off atm. I'm getting so stressed over going to Nottingham and I'm going to have £56 by the time I go. That's £32 for the train and then £18.60 for the hotel which leaves me with £5.40 for food but i'm not going to spend it on food because I'll ruin my diet. I'll end up spending on shit or something. I'm so scared of the train, the longest I have been on a train is the 8mins (or whatever) to the Metrocentre and I'm still scared of trains/metros. I'm also terrified of sleeping in a hotel room by myself and by by myself I mean without my parents who would protect me from the people who break in. Even when I stay in a hotel with my parents I'm awake all night because I'm scared of someone breaking in. Actually it's not hotels, it's just cheap hotels like travel lodges and stuff like that. Like when I go to Florida and stay in the hotel I'll be fine, idk why I'm just a bit crazy.
Jessica and Emma are my favourite people ever atm! The texts they've been sending me today have made me cry so much. I love them both and idk what I'd do without them. It makes me feel like I'm actually wanted when someone tells me they love me and I know that they actually mean it.
Oh I really want a ticket for Hadouken! They're playing in like May or something. I fucking need some money!! Their last gig was one of the best gigs I've ever been to and if I miss this I will be gutted. Like proper.
I've just realised I'm meant to be writing my Sociology coursework since it's the only subject I can do :( I hate how the thing you like you can't do and the other way around. Okay, that made no sense:
I really like English Language- I'm not that good at it.
I actually like Chemistry contrary to what you might think- I'm failing miserably, my highest grade is a U.
Psychology is okay- I'm failing.
I don't like Sociology- I'm doing well!
I've planned all of my outfits I'm taking to Nottingham, I love going away, it's so exciting when you get to plan things like this.
Hardly anyone noticed my hair today who didn't know I was getting it done. There was only Kieron, my English teacher and a few other people lol. So I've came to the conclusion that I don't like my hair anymore :( I wish I could shave it all off and start all over again.
Leave me lovely comments!