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I love drama, especially when it involves me :D
I was really upset yesterday but now I'm really happy. I'm happy with the way everything is turning/going to turn out. I realised that if I want something to happen, only I can make it happen. I am in control of my own life. I'm not letting my parents mess up my life any more by making shitty decisions for me, I'm not letting other people try and control me. If I do something, I'll do it for me. Even though nothing good has happened recently, I'm happy, actually I don't think I could say that I'm truly happy, I still have a feeling that everything is going to go totally wrong very soon. I don't deserve to be happy for too long, maybe only a week at the most.
I know loads of people are well pissed off at me right now, I know I shouldn't have done what I did but idc, I did it and now I'm fine with it. I haven't liked anyone in ages well part from cute guy but I never had any chance with him anyway but I like someone now and they make me happy ^__^ Don't bother asking, I'm not going to tell you unless I choose to. That Chemistry test on Friday was so hard, if I fail it I'm going to leave and I'm not going on that Personal Development shit. I explained all about my Chemistry to my Mother and she's well pissed off at me because I'm not perfect and I still fail at life. Oh well, she'll get over it. I've got two letters back from places I applied for jobs to, both saying that there were no jobs that appeared to suit me, oh well. I have coursework to do today and then I'm going out tomorrow.
Oh I went to the doctors and got really pretty coloured pills, I keep on forgetting to take them though so ima get terribly pregnant :/ Oh in Lau's on Friday there was this really cute baby and I decided for like 20mins after that I was gonna have a baby. I'm so silly, I could never raise a child I'd kill it :( I thought about it for ages after and then decided that I never want kids because I'll turn out like my Mother and I'd hate myself for that. Also, my kids would hate me too :/
I want a new piercing, reccomend me some :] I still really want my lip pierced but I don't think I'd suit it so I'm thinking about snakebites instead. I haven't had an arguement with my parents in a while so I might bring up new piercings soon.
I was really upset yesterday but now I'm really happy. I'm happy with the way everything is turning/going to turn out. I realised that if I want something to happen, only I can make it happen. I am in control of my own life. I'm not letting my parents mess up my life any more by making shitty decisions for me, I'm not letting other people try and control me. If I do something, I'll do it for me. Even though nothing good has happened recently, I'm happy, actually I don't think I could say that I'm truly happy, I still have a feeling that everything is going to go totally wrong very soon. I don't deserve to be happy for too long, maybe only a week at the most.
I know loads of people are well pissed off at me right now, I know I shouldn't have done what I did but idc, I did it and now I'm fine with it. I haven't liked anyone in ages well part from cute guy but I never had any chance with him anyway but I like someone now and they make me happy ^__^ Don't bother asking, I'm not going to tell you unless I choose to. That Chemistry test on Friday was so hard, if I fail it I'm going to leave and I'm not going on that Personal Development shit. I explained all about my Chemistry to my Mother and she's well pissed off at me because I'm not perfect and I still fail at life. Oh well, she'll get over it. I've got two letters back from places I applied for jobs to, both saying that there were no jobs that appeared to suit me, oh well. I have coursework to do today and then I'm going out tomorrow.
Oh I went to the doctors and got really pretty coloured pills, I keep on forgetting to take them though so ima get terribly pregnant :/ Oh in Lau's on Friday there was this really cute baby and I decided for like 20mins after that I was gonna have a baby. I'm so silly, I could never raise a child I'd kill it :( I thought about it for ages after and then decided that I never want kids because I'll turn out like my Mother and I'd hate myself for that. Also, my kids would hate me too :/
I want a new piercing, reccomend me some :] I still really want my lip pierced but I don't think I'd suit it so I'm thinking about snakebites instead. I haven't had an arguement with my parents in a while so I might bring up new piercings soon.