*le sigh*
I don't know why... but this mornning I woke up like normal. But once I made my way to the bathroom, and looked in the mirror, I felt like... blah. I'm thinking maybe it's because the straigth hair style I had is gone so I'm left with my massive ball of curly fuzzy hair. And it's all tangled in the back u__u
My face broke out a little in just 2 days since my hair went back to the norm.... >> I got sick and tired the other night by the way Nick leaves the bathroom after he's finished in there, whether it be after a shower of brushing his teeth, so I cleaned it at 1am the other night. I made him scrub the toilet! ^^ But I was stuck with the bath tub that was also destroyed by my cat's hair and tub toys. I don't even like relaxing in my tub anymore because I always have to clean it first. Goodness, there's only 3 people who live in this apartment but my bathroom looks like it's 6!! O_O
I don't feel sexy anymore. Last week, I was as horny as a school girl...but now... I don't even wanna think about sex. Jena's running around so much I can't even go pee w/o her following me and wanting to stare into the toilet. I can't even do simple chores like clean the table w/o her causing a mess once I'm done. Sometimes I just feel like letting the apartment to go ruins just so I can lay down and get rid of these damn gas bubbles that keep lurking in my stomach. That shit hurts!! It's like trying to digest golf ball!! >_<
My b-day is a month from yesterday... yippee... >> I told Nick, "I don't care if I can't go to the movies and dinner like we normally do. I just want a trip to a day spa and nothing else from you. I just want to be pampered and left alone. Something I've never had all at once!"
Gahh... >> now my mother wants me to fill out a form so I can go visit my brother in jail. I haven't seen him for many years though I do write to him. But... I'm just so embarrassed and disappointed in him. I'm not going to say what it was he did to wind up behind bars, but I'll just say: instead of working hard to get things in life, he tired the easy way and got locked up for it.
I really thought he was smarter than that. I mean, I didn't expect him to be a teacher or anything. Just something... *sigh* Maybe he didn't think he could either... but I wonder who's fault that is? My mom's possibly? But then again, I gotta say she did always tell us we could be anything we wanted to be. But she never really did much to get us there. Like with me, I was great student in junior high but it got to a point where I felt like she just wanted me to excel for bragging rights. Not because she didn't become anything and wanted me to be better. So I have up on being a bookworm and wanted friends. Then once that fell through and I wanted to concentrate on school, she wouldn't even show up at appointments so I could get finacial aid, so I never went to college.
My brother misses out on so many important things. His daugther's now 16 and you all know what that means... He missed my wedding and Jena's birth, my sister graduating from high school, my mother's 50th b-day, and my older sister getting married. They're tring to get him out in a few years, but I think even if he's let back into society, because he's been locked up so many times now (this is the 3rd) it'll be harder for him to get those things he wants and give his daugther the world, that he'll go back to his old ways and have to go back behind bars.
Just noticed his went longer than I wanted it too... gomen nasai TT_TT. I still need to fill out a meme:
1. What do you see when you look out of your bedroom window? grass... some trees.. a metal fence... the street and sometimes a few dogs
2. Whats your favorite book? To Kill a Mocking Bird, by Harper Lee ( I recommend it ^^)
3. Did you play with barbie dolls (action figures for the boys)when you were little? Yeah, and they weren't teenage looking whores like nowadays.... >> Barbie once had careers to worry about, not what outfit to wear to a party!
4. What animal(s) do you like most? Cats {big or small), monkeys, rabbits, hamsters, snakes, lizards, and certain dogs.
5. What were the best places you went to on holiday? Hmmm... Florida. We went to Disney World
6. Do you have more friends online or offline? *looks at messenger lists* Yeah... it's kinda sad. I'm not a shy person.
7. What time you usually go to sleep? 2am... is that normal? o.O
8. Do you like your real name? Nope... I can't stand it. I was thinking of changing it... >>
9. What music are you playing now? Teriyaki Boys "Kamikazi108" (coming soon to the US!! ^^)
10. What movie did you see last? I watched Pirates of the Caribbean a last week on DVD, does that count? o.o
11. What are you gonna do after filling in this list and post it? Cut my mom's hair... >>
12. Which people you wanna tag for filling in this list too? Anyone who reads this entire entry!!! XD