I've been traveling and wandering alone on my own for too long....

[kawaiispinel]

I wish I could get out of this fucking FUNK I've been in. I just feel desperately needy and unhappy and lonely and I don't know why. I have lots of awesome friends I talk to all the time who love me and I love in return. It's a shitty feeling and I don't know how to fix it. And I'm the kind of person who just can't ask for anything, even if she

Comments

[draegonhawke]

Are you looking for a way to fix this, or are you looking for it just to be fixed? My experience with this sort of funks is that there are ways to deal with them and get yourself out of them, but they're the sort of things that require an expenditure of effort, a lot of habit-building, and some honest introspection - not the sort of second-guessing that gets you stuck in a rut, but a real, forced-objective look at all the forces in play and how they're coming together and making you feel.

I mean, it sucks to be in those funks, but it's also really easy - it doesn't take any effort to stay there. And digging yourself out, and building up the skills and resources to build yourself up, takes a lot of effort and trying different things, a lot of which don't work, and finding not only the things that don't work but also why they don't work and finding out why the things that do work do... but it's possible. And it helps in a way that constant reinforcement doesn't, because taking care of yourself, emotionally, etc., will be in your own hands instead of an artefact of how you interact with others.

I mean, if you were really interested in scrabbling your way up that mountain, I could help show a lot of the paths and tricks I've found - I'm still learning how to do all of that, myself. And, yeah, a year in I still have dips and funks and depressive phases, but they're not as frequent or as deep, and I can deal with a lot more stuff with a lot more aplomb than I used to be able to. It really is a better place to be.