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I don't know what the hell...
Yana and I got pedicures and manicures today... whee haha... then we picked up gordie and went to burlington beach. oh yea, jordan was there too but you wouldn't have noticed because he puts his headphones on and ignores everyone and just kinda walks along behind us. well thanks, jordan. I asked him along cause i didnt want to be a 3rd wheel, and he didnt even do anything.
I think my being in a bad and depressed mood probably has something to do with him being so anti-everything... it just brought me down too... especially with yana and gordie all...smoochie. they're cute though.
Just makes me miss nick... and then i think about it and go "but wait... we're not even 'together' or whatever... at least, nothing's been said.
I want to know if i'm more than just a summer fling. I want to know now, before I sink my heart too far into it to get out and go.
I'm going away in 3 weeks, to toronto... Trav said nick'll probably make the 1 hour bus ride trip to and from york and I'll come back to visit him and such... but i don't know. We've never really talked about it. *Sigh*
I'm falling again, and I wish I knew what he wanted out of this....I'd rather not fall into it and just hit the ground.
I've been hurt too many times now. I can't take it again.
I wish I knew...
Yana and I got pedicures and manicures today... whee haha... then we picked up gordie and went to burlington beach. oh yea, jordan was there too but you wouldn't have noticed because he puts his headphones on and ignores everyone and just kinda walks along behind us. well thanks, jordan. I asked him along cause i didnt want to be a 3rd wheel, and he didnt even do anything.
I think my being in a bad and depressed mood probably has something to do with him being so anti-everything... it just brought me down too... especially with yana and gordie all...smoochie. they're cute though.
Just makes me miss nick... and then i think about it and go "but wait... we're not even 'together' or whatever... at least, nothing's been said.
I want to know if i'm more than just a summer fling. I want to know now, before I sink my heart too far into it to get out and go.
I'm going away in 3 weeks, to toronto... Trav said nick'll probably make the 1 hour bus ride trip to and from york and I'll come back to visit him and such... but i don't know. We've never really talked about it. *Sigh*
I'm falling again, and I wish I knew what he wanted out of this....I'd rather not fall into it and just hit the ground.
I've been hurt too many times now. I can't take it again.
I wish I knew...