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hot day
returned 7 24's of beer bottles for gas money
soooo thirsty. of course, drinking all the time means peeing lots... I hate having to go the bathroom. the feeling of having to go is annoying.
I feel bleh... like.. every time i sit down or lay down i could fall asleep in .3 seconds.
which is shit 'cause i STILL have work i'm doing.
hot days make me feel gross and lethargic... like even 3 minutes outside in the sun makes me sweat buckets and my head hurt.
playing the waiting game..
i keep getting headaches again. every day. its a pain in the ass... well, head. you know.
i want to get a 1 piece bathing suit so i can do laps and shit without worrying about my suit.
I need to work out more, i may have lost 8 lbs, but the flabby is growing again.
I'm just so tired/lazy/hot/ in pain that working out seems like asking for death....
but i still try.
dad leaves tomorrow, home alone for a week.
I applied at a bunch of restaurants for jobs... hopefully I hear back from one soon. wouldn't it be amazing if more than one called me.
Rob's concert last night was great.
didn't get my tattoo touched up.. which is shitty... ill have to make an appointment and go at some point. I don't want to go alone. and it has to be on a day that i have an excuse to go to Toronto for otherwise my dad will be all grr.
its sad that moving my hand from the keyboard to mouse took a lot of effort.
maybe im sick... who knows.
I'm broke...really really hoping that job thing comes through asap...
downloaded a bunch of new music.
I want to go dancing. loud pounding techno rock beats, so i can just let loose and have fun. Boys don't dance good, its sad.
when i'm bored i think of things i could do... and all i ever think of is going places that involve getting food or something. which i dont want to do a) money, b) shape.
oh bloody hell this was a lazy day.
maybe something will happen tonight. *crosses fingers*
its happening again...
i'm scared.
I'm scared of rejection, scared of being hurt, scared I'll be unhappy and will mess it up. again.
I don't know whats going to happen though...
deep breath.
Jump.
returned 7 24's of beer bottles for gas money
soooo thirsty. of course, drinking all the time means peeing lots... I hate having to go the bathroom. the feeling of having to go is annoying.
I feel bleh... like.. every time i sit down or lay down i could fall asleep in .3 seconds.
which is shit 'cause i STILL have work i'm doing.
hot days make me feel gross and lethargic... like even 3 minutes outside in the sun makes me sweat buckets and my head hurt.
playing the waiting game..
i keep getting headaches again. every day. its a pain in the ass... well, head. you know.
i want to get a 1 piece bathing suit so i can do laps and shit without worrying about my suit.
I need to work out more, i may have lost 8 lbs, but the flabby is growing again.
I'm just so tired/lazy/hot/ in pain that working out seems like asking for death....
but i still try.
dad leaves tomorrow, home alone for a week.
I applied at a bunch of restaurants for jobs... hopefully I hear back from one soon. wouldn't it be amazing if more than one called me.
Rob's concert last night was great.
didn't get my tattoo touched up.. which is shitty... ill have to make an appointment and go at some point. I don't want to go alone. and it has to be on a day that i have an excuse to go to Toronto for otherwise my dad will be all grr.
its sad that moving my hand from the keyboard to mouse took a lot of effort.
maybe im sick... who knows.
I'm broke...really really hoping that job thing comes through asap...
downloaded a bunch of new music.
I want to go dancing. loud pounding techno rock beats, so i can just let loose and have fun. Boys don't dance good, its sad.
when i'm bored i think of things i could do... and all i ever think of is going places that involve getting food or something. which i dont want to do a) money, b) shape.
oh bloody hell this was a lazy day.
maybe something will happen tonight. *crosses fingers*
its happening again...
i'm scared.
I'm scared of rejection, scared of being hurt, scared I'll be unhappy and will mess it up. again.
I don't know whats going to happen though...
deep breath.
Jump.