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i'm not as smart as they think i am.
I'm afraid i'll never live up to their dreams. i truely don't know if i can. I try but it just doesn't happen. I need to be all they wanted. i need to be what they think and hope i am. I just can't do anything else. i can't let them down. and i am. do you know how bad that feels? I need to reach that pedistal they try and put me on. for them, for my sister, and i guess for myself. i just need to find the stairs.
hopefully i can do that by next quarter reportcards.otherwise...i just don't know...
I'm afraid i'll never live up to their dreams. i truely don't know if i can. I try but it just doesn't happen. I need to be all they wanted. i need to be what they think and hope i am. I just can't do anything else. i can't let them down. and i am. do you know how bad that feels? I need to reach that pedistal they try and put me on. for them, for my sister, and i guess for myself. i just need to find the stairs.
hopefully i can do that by next quarter reportcards.otherwise...i just don't know...