Bwah
Ugh... i really dont know what im doing these days. if these decisions are smart. if im being foolish. i just dont know.
I met a really awesome kid. hes the most romantic, sweetest, cutest kid ever. Plus he plays guitar, sings and is in a band. So what in the world is holding me back?? i told him im not ready to be in a relationship yet. which is the truth... he took out all the stuff about me in his myspace and changed it to him wanting to meet cute chicks at his concerts. i admit it, it stung. but its just consequences that resulted from my choice. maybe im scared. things were going way too fast for my comfort level, the drive out there kills my gas tank, im not quite over matt. are these just excuses? or legit reasons to withdraw from what could be a nice relationship. sigh..
now im going to North Carolina which will most likely spark stuff between me and matt. i want to see him and north carolina will be awesome, but what am i doing? is that really a smart idea? >.< rar i miss him. its true. maybe ill be fine after my 12 days down there. i hope it doesnt complicate things.
(insert advice here) lol. what am i saying, no one reads this crap anyway. ha
its good to sort it all out on here tho.
hm, wish me luck.
I met a really awesome kid. hes the most romantic, sweetest, cutest kid ever. Plus he plays guitar, sings and is in a band. So what in the world is holding me back?? i told him im not ready to be in a relationship yet. which is the truth... he took out all the stuff about me in his myspace and changed it to him wanting to meet cute chicks at his concerts. i admit it, it stung. but its just consequences that resulted from my choice. maybe im scared. things were going way too fast for my comfort level, the drive out there kills my gas tank, im not quite over matt. are these just excuses? or legit reasons to withdraw from what could be a nice relationship. sigh..
now im going to North Carolina which will most likely spark stuff between me and matt. i want to see him and north carolina will be awesome, but what am i doing? is that really a smart idea? >.< rar i miss him. its true. maybe ill be fine after my 12 days down there. i hope it doesnt complicate things.
(insert advice here) lol. what am i saying, no one reads this crap anyway. ha
its good to sort it all out on here tho.
hm, wish me luck.