Life is so _________ .
Blah. Im feeling sad....
My words dont matter to him. My hugs dont make him smile. My I love you's dont seem to mean much. I'm a pest. I'm annoying because i dont want him to drink or smoke and I nag him about it. He gets angry at me for caring so much about him. I'm sad because he's sad. I'm sad because he has no self worth and no self love and takes it out on me. At least he opens up to me somewhat, but a lot of times he ends up lashing out at me. I feel horrible and cry my eyes out when he talks about if he died no one would care, and if they did they wouldnt care after a year. He doesn't see how i look at him. He's my world and my love and in my eyes he's the most amazing guy i have ever met in my life. He's the only one in the past who knew how to really comfort me and hold me tight and make me feel safe. A huge chunk of my world is him. I love him. But it doesnt seem to matter.... and it makes me sad... But I'll stick by his side and i'll fight for us. I'm not going to give up easily. He may hate me for that, i dont know, but i don't want to lose him, and hopefully he'll realize i really do love him and i just want him to be happy
sigh... Im such a loser. Who sits here and listens to Dashboard and cries? Sometimes i think im pathetic... but I do what makes me feel somewhat better. -_-
Make a comment, even if it's something silly. Make me smile please cause i really need it. :/