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I am so stressed out, I'm feeling pain and I can't stop crying. I am so annoyed at the world and school and life in itself and ofcourse I have nobody that I can talk to. I spent until late last night with my mom in the hospital but it turns out luckily she's okay.And I have nearly a whole month before I can see Tim again and I miss him so much! This is so frustrating.I feel the "quit" attitude coming on and it's killing me, I wonder why I should try and to top it all off I can't stop thinking about enlisting. I mean, not that I believe in this freaking war but I can't stop thinking about how awesome it would be to be a part of something bigger to be with so many people who are passionate about what they do, unlike every other freaken person I talk to who just has a conceded, self-loving, don't-care-about-anything-else-in-the-world attitude that I really can't deal with. And ofcourse everyone says I can't do it, and I can so screw you guys. Then again, it would also help me pay for college after and explore the world. Actually, the only thing stopping me is wanting to be with Tim for ever. I'm so lonely, pained, stressed and all's I want is to curl up in a freaken ball and wait until I can meet someone who cares. and I am so freaken series. I just wish it was saturday so I can sleep away until 5.... :-( I want to be somewhere else where people care and the most important part of life is certainly not yourself.