Rants. Yet again.
What should I do with my life?
I really don't know.
I've been thinking alot these days.
Should I be practical or should I explore other options?
Should I stay in a job that pays well or should I go and find something that is more suited to the course I've studied for the past 5 years?
I know it's kind of hard to find another job.
I mean, what with the recession and inflation and corrupt government officials.
And what's harder is finding a job where you'll feel the sibling-like relationship of each member of the team.
Admittedly, I'm afraid to go out of my comfort zone.
But sometimes, I stop and think if I should be doing what I should be doing.
And really, a few times over this week, I have been guilty of doing my job without really thinking of how I should do it well.
I really envy Arashi.
How can they work hard every single day and not get tired of it.
They can always put on their best smile and their all in everything.
Why can't I be like them?
It must be because they love what they're doing.
While I love...my teammates.
If only I know what I truly want with my life, then everything's gonna be okay.
But as it is, I don't really know what I want.
I'm afraid of everything, of the future, of myself.
I guess I'm like Raju in a way.
Afraid of everything, afraid of change, afraid of adventure.
I wish I could give my best in everything.
I wish for a stop in monotony.
I wish I could do a lot of things.
I wish I could be productive.
But everytime I try to be, I always end up not being one.
Maybe, I need to attend a seminar on how to set goals or something.
I feel so..distracted.
I don't know.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Lord, please help me.
Please.
I really don't know.
I've been thinking alot these days.
Should I be practical or should I explore other options?
Should I stay in a job that pays well or should I go and find something that is more suited to the course I've studied for the past 5 years?
I know it's kind of hard to find another job.
I mean, what with the recession and inflation and corrupt government officials.
And what's harder is finding a job where you'll feel the sibling-like relationship of each member of the team.
Admittedly, I'm afraid to go out of my comfort zone.
But sometimes, I stop and think if I should be doing what I should be doing.
And really, a few times over this week, I have been guilty of doing my job without really thinking of how I should do it well.
I really envy Arashi.
How can they work hard every single day and not get tired of it.
They can always put on their best smile and their all in everything.
Why can't I be like them?
It must be because they love what they're doing.
While I love...my teammates.
If only I know what I truly want with my life, then everything's gonna be okay.
But as it is, I don't really know what I want.
I'm afraid of everything, of the future, of myself.
I guess I'm like Raju in a way.
Afraid of everything, afraid of change, afraid of adventure.
I wish I could give my best in everything.
I wish for a stop in monotony.
I wish I could do a lot of things.
I wish I could be productive.
But everytime I try to be, I always end up not being one.
Maybe, I need to attend a seminar on how to set goals or something.
I feel so..distracted.
I don't know.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Lord, please help me.
Please.