Another awakening is shaking within the splashing of the waves...
Only have an apple a day for this week. Need to lose the extra weight I've gained. I blaming it on my boyfriend, really. He's been taking me out to eat all the time, and I've been having trouble resist... I've even gone to McDonalds! Oh fuck! But I feel pretty confident that I can lose this extra weight that I've gained over the past month and to get back to my 90 pounds point. That's really the only weight that I feel comfortable and actually feel 'happy'.
I've told my boyfriend that I'm not going to be eating for some time now because I'm not happy with my weight. He said 'ok' and said he wouldn't mention food around me. I think I'm pretty lucky to have him as my boyfriend. I know that a lot of guys wouldn't put up with an anorexic girlfriend. But some how, he does. I asked him once why he puts up with it. He said "I wants you to be happy." And he said "I knows that if you don't like yourself, than there is no way you'll be happy. How can you love me if you don't love yourself?" It took me by surprise, but it's true. I'm lucky. Because I know no one would put up with me with my eating habits. Or my own self drama.
I've told my boyfriend that I'm not going to be eating for some time now because I'm not happy with my weight. He said 'ok' and said he wouldn't mention food around me. I think I'm pretty lucky to have him as my boyfriend. I know that a lot of guys wouldn't put up with an anorexic girlfriend. But some how, he does. I asked him once why he puts up with it. He said "I wants you to be happy." And he said "I knows that if you don't like yourself, than there is no way you'll be happy. How can you love me if you don't love yourself?" It took me by surprise, but it's true. I'm lucky. Because I know no one would put up with me with my eating habits. Or my own self drama.