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I swear I'm going to kill something soon if guys don't stop finding themselves attracted to me. -_-; I was all happy coming across one every once in a while, but now, for some unknown reason, they all want to like me at the same time. I suppose it would be kinda nice if I wasn't completely tangled up in it all. I wonder why this sudden onrush of male attention. There's nothing different about me...is there? And for some reason, they are all older than me...Only one guy who I know liked me at one point is younger than me. The rest are 6 months or older. And now Josh tells me that he likes me. And has been attracted to me since the day we met, which was April of 2004. He had a girlfriend then though, but they broke up about a month ago. Jill. She's my friend too. I was perfectly fine being his 'little sister', which we actually convinced many people of last year XD and this year we have several more very confused about it. I just sortof let him talk and didn't exactly respond when he told me. I'd had some very strong suspicions, so I was prepaired, but it was still odd. I let him ramble. He said that if anything happened between us, he didn't want to get too involved because he's had bad experiences when he has gotten to involved in the past. Heh. Sounds like me...=/ I really didn't know what to tell him. I had been attracted to him in the past, but I really didn't think anything of it because he, of course, had a girlfriend. So, I forgot about it several months ago, and I would randomly think about it. But with all this stuff going on, he was actually the last person on my mind. Until this morning. Now he is a top priority because I can't exactly ignore him...
I had a long conversation with Momma about boys (among other things) tonight. The downside to that was the numerous mosquito bites on my legs. The upside is that I figured out a whole bunch of different things. I also learned that *gasp* she knew I liked Paul. What a complete surprize! No, what really caught me off guard was that she's pretty sure that he knew. I wasn't sure whether to be mortified, or pleased. She said that I was very subtle about it, and that I didn't make it obvious at all, and that's why he liked me so much as a friend anyway. Because I didn't drive him nuts. =D But the one good thing about him moving off is that I can detach myself from him. I really didn't want to like him in that way. I'd rather have what he and Cheryl have. I want to be more like his sister than anything. Because then I can wrestle with him and whatnot and not have to worry about wondering what he's thinking when he grabs my hand and doesn't let go because I'm trying to reach that ticklish spot on his knee. Or when he rests his arm on my shoulder. Or lets me take ahold of his hair for 5 minutes without protesting. Or looks at me the way that would melt Savanna. Or any of those other things that made me wonder. But I still miss him like crazy. I saw his brother earlier. He reminds me so much of Paul, but only the way he sounds. They look nothing alike, except perhaps the fact that they are both about as big around as toothpicks. If you look at either of them at the right angle, they seem as though just poking them would seriously injure them, but erm...they're tough. Yes, -_-; I did bite him very, very hard. Get. Over. It. Would'ja just shut up! ...anywho... Yeah, well you also thought the storm was going to come back down and hit Galveston as a cat 4, so you should't be talking.
Oh, the storm. We didn't once loose power. It flickered a whole bunch though. A huge branch came down in my front yard, but my half dead tree is still standing. A huge oak the next street over isn't though. Huge, is is. It was so windy today that I didn't even hear them out there with the chainsaw cutting it up to get it out of the road. It's a lucky thing that it didn't damage any of the houses at all. Half our town is still without power. No church tomorrow. ): Well, I'll get to sleep in anyway.
EDIT: The last paragraph is in italics and I don't know why, nor do I know how to fix it. Deal.
I had a long conversation with Momma about boys (among other things) tonight. The downside to that was the numerous mosquito bites on my legs. The upside is that I figured out a whole bunch of different things. I also learned that *gasp* she knew I liked Paul. What a complete surprize! No, what really caught me off guard was that she's pretty sure that he knew. I wasn't sure whether to be mortified, or pleased. She said that I was very subtle about it, and that I didn't make it obvious at all, and that's why he liked me so much as a friend anyway. Because I didn't drive him nuts. =D But the one good thing about him moving off is that I can detach myself from him. I really didn't want to like him in that way. I'd rather have what he and Cheryl have. I want to be more like his sister than anything. Because then I can wrestle with him and whatnot and not have to worry about wondering what he's thinking when he grabs my hand and doesn't let go because I'm trying to reach that ticklish spot on his knee. Or when he rests his arm on my shoulder. Or lets me take ahold of his hair for 5 minutes without protesting. Or looks at me the way that would melt Savanna. Or any of those other things that made me wonder. But I still miss him like crazy. I saw his brother earlier. He reminds me so much of Paul, but only the way he sounds. They look nothing alike, except perhaps the fact that they are both about as big around as toothpicks. If you look at either of them at the right angle, they seem as though just poking them would seriously injure them, but erm...they're tough. Yes, -_-; I did bite him very, very hard. Get. Over. It. Would'ja just shut up! ...anywho... Yeah, well you also thought the storm was going to come back down and hit Galveston as a cat 4, so you should't be talking.
Oh, the storm. We didn't once loose power. It flickered a whole bunch though. A huge branch came down in my front yard, but my half dead tree is still standing. A huge oak the next street over isn't though. Huge, is is. It was so windy today that I didn't even hear them out there with the chainsaw cutting it up to get it out of the road. It's a lucky thing that it didn't damage any of the houses at all. Half our town is still without power. No church tomorrow. ): Well, I'll get to sleep in anyway.
EDIT: The last paragraph is in italics and I don't know why, nor do I know how to fix it. Deal.