at the end of the world
Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit..
I'm pretty convinced that I'm going to throw myself down from our balcony before thursday evening. And to top that the moral support of the mere two people most important to me when finding out, I'm without.
it's not like it's nothing. These results determine my life most concretely for the next year, but also in a more indirect way the results influence the next 3-5 years of my life and the whole entity that is my life.
I can almost vision that maths grade, in my worst nightmares, it's a devastating 1 and in my daydreams I keep hoping I'll pass with a 2.
I wasn't supposed to be in this situation, I wasn't supposed to be worrying about graduating. I was supposed to be good at this stuff, not great, I've never been competitive enough to want to be the best, just good enough for my own satisfaction.
it's not like I'm asking to get into med school, it's not like I want to be an astronaut or anything. I don't think I'm asking for much.
All I'd want is to get one fricking grade right and have two people holding my hands when I find out. Is that so much to ask.. I guess it is.. fuck it.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
I'm pretty convinced that I'm going to throw myself down from our balcony before thursday evening. And to top that the moral support of the mere two people most important to me when finding out, I'm without.
it's not like it's nothing. These results determine my life most concretely for the next year, but also in a more indirect way the results influence the next 3-5 years of my life and the whole entity that is my life.
I can almost vision that maths grade, in my worst nightmares, it's a devastating 1 and in my daydreams I keep hoping I'll pass with a 2.
I wasn't supposed to be in this situation, I wasn't supposed to be worrying about graduating. I was supposed to be good at this stuff, not great, I've never been competitive enough to want to be the best, just good enough for my own satisfaction.
it's not like I'm asking to get into med school, it's not like I want to be an astronaut or anything. I don't think I'm asking for much.
All I'd want is to get one fricking grade right and have two people holding my hands when I find out. Is that so much to ask.. I guess it is.. fuck it.
Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I Hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me
Ouch I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe
Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold me
I am small
I'm needy
Warm me up
And breathe me