Life
For some reason I can't help thinking about the fourth question that all religions ask: Why do bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people? I know so many good, wonderful people in my life, and I rarely see good and wonderful things happen to them. Whether they are friends or family, nothing good comes their way. It hurts me so much to see my friends and family suffer. I just want everyone to be happy.
I remember being asked why I don't just give up. Honestly, giving up has never crossed my mind. I'm stubborn, probably so stubborn that I often make other upset with me. I've come to a point in my life where everyone I care about lives too far for me to see them regularly. It makes me worry so much about their well being. If it were possible, I would live with all those that I hold close to me. I would protect them, make it so suffering and sorrow comes less often.
Someone told me that I am a very caring person. Sometimes I wonder if its possible I care too much. Should I change? Should I become more callous and cold? Should I become like all those self-centered, image conscious, "I am a manly man" bozos that seem to always get the women?
The more I write this, the more alone I feel. I begin to question why I haven't found a girl to be with. Being told that I'm a great guy doesn't help me either. If I'm so great, why do I feel so out of place? If women really look for guys like me, why haven't I been found?
*sigh* I started this post to talk about how much I care about my friends. Instead, I ended up talking about myself. Guess I need to shut up now. I don't know what to do.
Words to live by: Believe in yourself and create your own destiny. Don't fear fate.
I remember being asked why I don't just give up. Honestly, giving up has never crossed my mind. I'm stubborn, probably so stubborn that I often make other upset with me. I've come to a point in my life where everyone I care about lives too far for me to see them regularly. It makes me worry so much about their well being. If it were possible, I would live with all those that I hold close to me. I would protect them, make it so suffering and sorrow comes less often.
Someone told me that I am a very caring person. Sometimes I wonder if its possible I care too much. Should I change? Should I become more callous and cold? Should I become like all those self-centered, image conscious, "I am a manly man" bozos that seem to always get the women?
The more I write this, the more alone I feel. I begin to question why I haven't found a girl to be with. Being told that I'm a great guy doesn't help me either. If I'm so great, why do I feel so out of place? If women really look for guys like me, why haven't I been found?
*sigh* I started this post to talk about how much I care about my friends. Instead, I ended up talking about myself. Guess I need to shut up now. I don't know what to do.
Words to live by: Believe in yourself and create your own destiny. Don't fear fate.