Oct 05, 2010 18:35
Life is looking a whole lot sunnier now that I know what the problem is. Having explanations, concrete, physical reasons why I'm the way that I am makes things a whole lot easier. Easier to accept, easier to forgive, easier to explain, for everyone. Now I can focus on alleviating forty years of guilt and pain.
Where am I now? - in Hod, looking across to Netzach; gathering education as I try to understand my nature. It's been one clarifying bolt from Tiphareth after another, but each one is lancing old, old abcesses and draining them all. Maybe I can finally start to heal.
qabala,
life