free from all other responsibility
Tuesday I was laid off from my job. They gave me 15 minutes notice before the meeting and I knew that something was not right from the start. They did not inform my department director until about 15mins before my meeting. A decision from the upper management, my position was deemed unnecessary or expendable consider a possible decrease in the budget for the next year. So I was let go.
I am a lucky one. Everyone has been so supportive from work, to family and friends but really the next steps are mine to take. The last 48 hours I have not really focused on the situation. All day I was able to forget it and just sort of keep busy and not think about it. But tonight as people were getting ready to go to bed because they had work or classes tomorrow it just hit me. An overwhelming realization that tomorrow I don't have to do anything. I have no work. The loss and fear sort of take a momentary grip and I just had to remind myself that in the next few weeks the possibilities are in my control. The severance will enable me, free me from all other responsibilies and so that I can focus completely on deciding what I want to really do and what I enjoy to do. I didn't really have that in college between my classes and work.
I have to remind myself to act now so that in 6 weeks, when unemployment kicks in, I will have a plan or another job.
In many respects I am dreading going back home as now when people ask "Oh what are you doing now?" I have to answer, "Oh I was just laid off my job" OR my parents are going to want to sit down and talk about what I am going to do.
My head is a swimming mess of thoughts and I don't know what to do but that is all I can think about. What am I going to do?
I am a lucky one. Everyone has been so supportive from work, to family and friends but really the next steps are mine to take. The last 48 hours I have not really focused on the situation. All day I was able to forget it and just sort of keep busy and not think about it. But tonight as people were getting ready to go to bed because they had work or classes tomorrow it just hit me. An overwhelming realization that tomorrow I don't have to do anything. I have no work. The loss and fear sort of take a momentary grip and I just had to remind myself that in the next few weeks the possibilities are in my control. The severance will enable me, free me from all other responsibilies and so that I can focus completely on deciding what I want to really do and what I enjoy to do. I didn't really have that in college between my classes and work.
I have to remind myself to act now so that in 6 weeks, when unemployment kicks in, I will have a plan or another job.
In many respects I am dreading going back home as now when people ask "Oh what are you doing now?" I have to answer, "Oh I was just laid off my job" OR my parents are going to want to sit down and talk about what I am going to do.
My head is a swimming mess of thoughts and I don't know what to do but that is all I can think about. What am I going to do?