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So I'm buzzed. On tequila. So everything I say might not be relevant in the morning.
I just watched Garden State with Rick. It did nothing. I wrote him a note last night telling how I felt about everything. That also did nothing. I'm beginning to realize that someone up there just wants me to be miserable. Since I was 15, I've been with someone. The first two someones didn't love me. They liked me, sure. They never loved me. And they never treated me the way I wanted to be treated. Now, finally, I've found someone who treats me right, and who I could see myself being FULLY happy with. He has a fucking girlfriend who treats him like shit and he is unwilling to leave her. How is that supposed to make me feel? This summer has been one fucking giant heartbreak. First Dan leaves me, with little to no explanation, and doesn't talk to me all summer. Then, the house thing happens, which I'd rather not get into. I find ONE FUCKING THING that makes it better, ONE FUCKING THING that makes me happy and it's gone. It's going back to something that treats it like shit. That makes him feel horrible. That makes him feel like he's doing nothing right. And here I am, heartbroken again.
K
I just watched Garden State with Rick. It did nothing. I wrote him a note last night telling how I felt about everything. That also did nothing. I'm beginning to realize that someone up there just wants me to be miserable. Since I was 15, I've been with someone. The first two someones didn't love me. They liked me, sure. They never loved me. And they never treated me the way I wanted to be treated. Now, finally, I've found someone who treats me right, and who I could see myself being FULLY happy with. He has a fucking girlfriend who treats him like shit and he is unwilling to leave her. How is that supposed to make me feel? This summer has been one fucking giant heartbreak. First Dan leaves me, with little to no explanation, and doesn't talk to me all summer. Then, the house thing happens, which I'd rather not get into. I find ONE FUCKING THING that makes it better, ONE FUCKING THING that makes me happy and it's gone. It's going back to something that treats it like shit. That makes him feel horrible. That makes him feel like he's doing nothing right. And here I am, heartbroken again.
K