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Why?! Why?! WHY?!
Matt IMed me today. I don't know why. Probably just to upset me again. But it worked.
He didn't even have to say anything really. He said he wanted to make sure I was "okay."
FUCK THAT.
Don't pretend you still care. I know you don't. You showed me that a long time ago.
Long story short I had a mini mental break down. Freaked out.
I feel bad I kind of took it out on Jeff. I didn't mean to. I tried pushing him away.
UGH.
I'm so dumb. I'm just another dumb girl.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
I'm going to Jeff's tonight to talk to him. He was sweet.
His sister's rehearsal wedding dinner thing is tomorrow. The wedding's Saturday.
I'm nervous.
Matt IMed me today. I don't know why. Probably just to upset me again. But it worked.
He didn't even have to say anything really. He said he wanted to make sure I was "okay."
FUCK THAT.
Don't pretend you still care. I know you don't. You showed me that a long time ago.
Long story short I had a mini mental break down. Freaked out.
I feel bad I kind of took it out on Jeff. I didn't mean to. I tried pushing him away.
UGH.
I'm so dumb. I'm just another dumb girl.
fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck.
I'm going to Jeff's tonight to talk to him. He was sweet.
His sister's rehearsal wedding dinner thing is tomorrow. The wedding's Saturday.
I'm nervous.