I am in a strange contemplative mood....

[katys_a_poser]

With all the really important things going on in the world right now, my little problems seem so insignifigant, I don't have real problems...I'm not in Russia being killed by terrorists, I'm not sending some member of my family to go fight in a war that is just plain wrong, I'm not starving, poor, mistreated, ignored, unloved....nothing is wrong with me. I am absolutely wonderful and yet I let stupid petty bullshit that I most of the time create to keep my self entertained, I let it make me really upset. Sometimes I just act like a child, I want to grow up, be mature. I'm going to get involved in something, I need something to make me feel like I'm doing something to make other people feel better, instead of just myself. If I have brought anyone down with making them feel like they haven't done enough for me... I'm sorry (the majority of that apology going to Patrick) I need to start being able to stand on my own, no one is going to hold my hand through the rest of my life... I really want to be able to depend on my friends and especially Patrick who I love with my all my heart, but I feel so bad for boring them with my problems when they don't really matter.

I think that was the whole point of this entry but it kind of got lost in my rambling...hmmmm I dunno