breathing's overrated

[katydid417]

so yesterday in the mail i get this envelope from some senator. i sooo did not recognize the name. alas, i open it up expecting it to simply be a 'vote for me i'm so special' type thing, but tis not. first the guy congratulates me for my dean's list (and it mentioned my school...this is fishy to me) and then it offers me an internship with his office. an internship! i don't know what to think of this. i mean, is it real? is it bullshit? i read the information and it sounds sorta like the grunt work, but still. of course my mom chimed in with her ever enthusiastic and inspirational talks. ugh. i don't know what to think though. it also says it's for those interested in like public office, which i'm so not, but would it look good when applying to grad school? i'm not sure. i'd have to probably like drop a class or something to take the extra credits or just overload and be miserable all semester. but i wonder how he got my name? he obviously had my school and my dean's list thing, but that could've been published in the paper or something, i'm not sure. also, a few weeks back when my dad got a promotion, it was in the paper as well and this same senator dude sent him a congrats letter. i don't know what to think. tomorrow i'm hopefully gonna track someone down up at school and see what they think of it. i wish there was a website on the letter, but only a phone number. it's weird, i think.

i'm sick today. like serious can't breathe, head feels like it's gonna fall off, ears ringing, sore throat, no sleep sickness. i think i slept a total of 10 hours in the past 3 days. hence, when i woke this morning once again feeling like shit i called in sick. i feel bad about it, but i know i shouldn't. it's not like i'm an integral part of the whole financial aid dream. oh, i forget what it was like to breathe fully. it makes me sad. i need more sleep.