Meltdown
Well I did it - I cried in the store - just another cliche to add to the list entlted I'm Not A Teacher Who ...
In a way it did nothing but make me realise that I'm strong and I'm bloody amazing at my job. I know it sounds trite and all but you know what ... I don't care! I have had an amazing realisation that *I* am enough ... just me ... I have strength, I have talents and I am good at what I do.
OK, so between school and church (and the odd few hours sleeping) I have around 8 hours a week to myself ... but who said that's a bad thing?!
When I was a baby, everything was about me (and the fuzzy blobs who kept be clean and fed)
When I was a toddler I was given plenty of pinches on the cheek and ruffles to the hair
As a child I wanted for nothing and I never once felt alone
And those typical teenage years brought a whirlwind of self-realisation, self-doubt, self-abuse and just a pinch of self-obsession.
So now, at 22, nothing is about me ... I've had my turn. Now I get to be in the indescribable position where I see my successes reflected in those people around me.
Right now I'm in a new place ... and I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
~*~
In a way it did nothing but make me realise that I'm strong and I'm bloody amazing at my job. I know it sounds trite and all but you know what ... I don't care! I have had an amazing realisation that *I* am enough ... just me ... I have strength, I have talents and I am good at what I do.
OK, so between school and church (and the odd few hours sleeping) I have around 8 hours a week to myself ... but who said that's a bad thing?!
When I was a baby, everything was about me (and the fuzzy blobs who kept be clean and fed)
When I was a toddler I was given plenty of pinches on the cheek and ruffles to the hair
As a child I wanted for nothing and I never once felt alone
And those typical teenage years brought a whirlwind of self-realisation, self-doubt, self-abuse and just a pinch of self-obsession.
So now, at 22, nothing is about me ... I've had my turn. Now I get to be in the indescribable position where I see my successes reflected in those people around me.
Right now I'm in a new place ... and I know I'm exactly where I'm supposed to be.
~*~