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Dear lj,
So like things went from m-azing to like okay to great to shitttttasss and then great and like after last night/yesterday things have gotten better, but I still have this uncertainty and this like things have gotten better, but there's still something wrong? There are a few things that come to mind but I don't really care enough about them to make me feel like the worlds on my shoulders. Its kinda like the feeling you know something bads gonna happen but like wtf, what's gonna happen? There's been so much going on with our circle of friends lately, so much unnecessary drama that I feel my brains just turned to mush and things are so confusing. Its just so crazy to me that in one second things can change. Your views and perceptions on people, the ability to love or hate, life or death, it takes one second. Is it real or is it fake? Who knows. All I know is that I'm picking and chosing things in life, and I guess right now is one of those times. Yes like you all know, I'm next on the 21 chain, and yes, I'm fucking stoked as shit. And I feel that this will kind of validate or well lets say complete this "change". Like I said, I guess it just takes one second, one senence, one interraction to make the change. Lets just say its been a hell of a lot of sentences, interractions and seconds.
On a lighter note, I've been able to hang out with some of the most amazing people lately, and I'm so glad. Even if the hang outs are minimal the time is well spent and pure quality.
And on the other side of that note, there are some people that I wish were in my life and aren't and for whatever reason it bums my life out. And seeing you at your show doesn't constitute as hanging out, get real, I'm not gonna pay to hang out with my friends....or wait, I am. Duh! Hahah that didn't mean to be awk, promise.
All in all, radar is much tighter than all of you. Word. Peace out.
and
Love yous.
ps. 25 more days, eep!!! bbj
So like things went from m-azing to like okay to great to shitttttasss and then great and like after last night/yesterday things have gotten better, but I still have this uncertainty and this like things have gotten better, but there's still something wrong? There are a few things that come to mind but I don't really care enough about them to make me feel like the worlds on my shoulders. Its kinda like the feeling you know something bads gonna happen but like wtf, what's gonna happen? There's been so much going on with our circle of friends lately, so much unnecessary drama that I feel my brains just turned to mush and things are so confusing. Its just so crazy to me that in one second things can change. Your views and perceptions on people, the ability to love or hate, life or death, it takes one second. Is it real or is it fake? Who knows. All I know is that I'm picking and chosing things in life, and I guess right now is one of those times. Yes like you all know, I'm next on the 21 chain, and yes, I'm fucking stoked as shit. And I feel that this will kind of validate or well lets say complete this "change". Like I said, I guess it just takes one second, one senence, one interraction to make the change. Lets just say its been a hell of a lot of sentences, interractions and seconds.
On a lighter note, I've been able to hang out with some of the most amazing people lately, and I'm so glad. Even if the hang outs are minimal the time is well spent and pure quality.
And on the other side of that note, there are some people that I wish were in my life and aren't and for whatever reason it bums my life out. And seeing you at your show doesn't constitute as hanging out, get real, I'm not gonna pay to hang out with my friends....or wait, I am. Duh! Hahah that didn't mean to be awk, promise.
All in all, radar is much tighter than all of you. Word. Peace out.
and
Love yous.
ps. 25 more days, eep!!! bbj