better off without you

[kattywatty_xox]

i broke up with daniel this morning for the last goddamn time. last night at the regatta things just escaladed and then they settled down i guess and then they just got bad this morning. i'm so done i have no idea what i did wrong i didn't mean to just "leave him" i tried to get back up to him. he knew it was my first actual rock concert and that i'm not good with telling people to move and i just couldn't find him again and i tried i really did. and so i figured when i couldn't get back to him and couldn't hear him on the phone that we'd both just have a good time and he'd call me after to say bye to him somewhere or we'd be ok this morning, but obviously i was wrong. i'm gonna miss him and i'm gonna cry for him. i shouldn't, he's not gonna miss me, he's not gonna cry for me. it's stupid how much i love that boy and it's clear to me finally that he doesn't love me that much or he wouldn't have just let me walk away. maybe i expect too much, maybe i'm just a bad girlfriend, maybe i can't have a boyfriend right now; i have no idea. i just wanna go to sleep and then go to mandy's tomorrow and the regatta tomorrow night and have a good time. night ya'll.

xOx
kaitlyn tabra