Waiting in Limbo....
Nice title, huh, thats something I can say that I deserve alright.(sarcastic beyond belief) No, but seriously, what is with people and the people that you love leaving you to not know really whats going on till they feel like it. Thats just plain old Not Fair. I am still in Michigan, still here, I rebooked my train ticket for Sunday, dont know yet if I will go. I hate waiting, and I hate making huge descisions on my own, granted that I am never alone, in whatever I face in my life, I have awesome friends, and family, but making decisions that could ultimately change ones life, thats tough. No doubt about it. In making a choice like that, I would think that someone would have to consider both sides. Whats BEST for both parties. Staying or leaving. Sometimes whats best isnt what you ultimately want. That sucks big time. I mean, Love for example, Love is great, or supposed to be great pretty much all the time. So, If you think you are in love, but sometimes arent sure, then what is the outcome of that in your mind?....I dont know why life seems to have to be soo tough. I always thought, If you love someone, and want them around, be with them..despite what everyone else thinks. Be with them. If they are worth it. See, thats where I get confused, because it is like If your family and friends want whats best for you, and you (hate to admitt) but know whats best for you. (if it is a no brainer!) Then why still feel inlove? Or is Love simply just our imagination playing out who we want just by there appearance, and nothing substantial? I dont know, personalitty plays a big part, but ultimately it boils down to attraction, If you are not attracted to the person you say you love, then it needs to end. Attraction is a big thing. I was reading this book about the inside of dating, and it said, If a guy doesnt call you, it meand he is not thinking about you. That seems so frickin simple, but yet women make up so many exscuses for men, it is rediculous. If you start making exscuses for the man your with's actions, all the time, then get out. Ask yourself that one. I am fortunate to be in love. I am unfortunate to not feel loved. Do what makes you happy, is what my Grandmother in Windsor told me a couple days ago. Do what makes you happy. Man, If I had known that. My life wouldnt be how it is today.