college!!!
I think that I can finally say that I am much happier than I could ever have imagined myself being. There are finally things in my life that I can recognize as good and things that I am content with. I finally feel at peace with my friends...I feel excited for college and what's to come...I feel ready to make a new life for myself...I feel ready to be on my own.
I think orientation really opened up my eyes. I was terrified of going. I literally had a complete breakdown before I went. I was terrified that no one would like me and that no one would want to talk to me. I was proven so wrong. People did like me. People did talk to me. It was so comforting to know that I could make friends and people did want to be around me.
I am so beyond excited to bein school and begin all the activities that I am interested in. Campus Ministry seems absolutley amazing. I cannot wait to get involved in it. I love that church is right there...right next to my dorm. Its really comforting knowing that all I have to do if i am having a really hard time is walk outside and into the church to pray.
I feel like there is so much to look foward to and I hate that the usal is holding me back. I feel so insecure and uncomfortable even around my closest friends. My body terrifies me. There are so few foods I can eat without getting physically sick. It is so frusterating. I don't know how to make that better. I am still struggling a lot...but I am almost to a whole month without purging or cutting!!!!
But I am determined to make the rest of this summer kick ass and to have an amazing year at college. It is going to be great. There is so much ahead...somehow I need to make sure to remember the good and forget the bad.
I think orientation really opened up my eyes. I was terrified of going. I literally had a complete breakdown before I went. I was terrified that no one would like me and that no one would want to talk to me. I was proven so wrong. People did like me. People did talk to me. It was so comforting to know that I could make friends and people did want to be around me.
I am so beyond excited to bein school and begin all the activities that I am interested in. Campus Ministry seems absolutley amazing. I cannot wait to get involved in it. I love that church is right there...right next to my dorm. Its really comforting knowing that all I have to do if i am having a really hard time is walk outside and into the church to pray.
I feel like there is so much to look foward to and I hate that the usal is holding me back. I feel so insecure and uncomfortable even around my closest friends. My body terrifies me. There are so few foods I can eat without getting physically sick. It is so frusterating. I don't know how to make that better. I am still struggling a lot...but I am almost to a whole month without purging or cutting!!!!
But I am determined to make the rest of this summer kick ass and to have an amazing year at college. It is going to be great. There is so much ahead...somehow I need to make sure to remember the good and forget the bad.