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personally, suicide has always been the result of not wanting to live, which is not the same as wanting to not live or wanting to die. in my dreams it isnt an escape or a pusillanimous way out. suicide is an antiphon to having nothing to live for. understand that suicide isnt folding my hand but the idea that there is no game, no gain, no desire, no consequence and no opportunity; the cards dont go down to avoid greater defeat. the truth is the cards disappeared. you all disappeared.