.:: lettin' go ::.
Boy, you had me fooled.
I can't believe you.
Cuz you never done anything that I asked of you.
Always talking like I can't do right.
Blaming me for everything and that just ain't right.
Cuz I...
Cuz I can't do this alone (I don't know what to do)
Alone (I'm tryna stay with you)
It's not all about you
Boy, I can't do this alone (You're making this harder)
Alone (Boy, i'm about to leave you..)
This is dedicated to you...
So the past few days have been the most confusing days of my life, I guess I saw the signs, but being who I am I guess I just chose to deny everything because it was the fear of facing reality, the truth. Its been 17 months since the first day you asked me out, and its been those same 17 months that I've been in love and because of that I gave my all to you and I gave you my love. Its also been 17 months since I have realized that I could feel so strongly for a person and sacrifice my priorities to make you happy.
It was just yesterday that things ended for good, why? I should have known, those 3 days of ignoring my calls, my voicemsgs and my texts to you... those were all signs, but yet for some reason I had a tinge of hope remaining, that just maybe things were going to work out. But I was wrong, it was just yesterday that you had a the audacity to make your cousin call me to break the news to me. Hearing that you were done with me and that you no longer wanted to talk to me, frustrated me because you disrespected me in all aspects. You couldn't stir up the courage to tell me yourself and after 17 months, I thought that maybe, just maybe our relationship meant something to you. Like you said before, our relationship is between us and I agree, but if its just between us, how are you getting your cousin to call me and tell me that you no longer want to talk to me? What kills it the most, is that everyone else knew what was going on, but me. You dragged the situation on for 3 days, and within those 3 days I thought that you were just too busy to answer my calls or to even reply to one of my msgs, but instead you had all the time in the world to just pick up the phone when i called and to tell me yourself that we were done, but no, you couldn't. Instead you had the audacity to make other people pick up your phone and make up stupid excuses for you.
It was just yesterday that you really broke my heart because you did not think twice about breaking up with me, you were so sure of it, that nothing crossed your mind... you just ended it, our relationship and our friendship. What makes me mad is that you fail to realize that even though we had problems in our relationship, there was never a time where we didn't talk about it or tried to make things work. You fail to realize everything that I've done for you, and not only that, you fail to realize that I supported you no matter what you did and no matter how much trouble you got yourself into. In the end, I was the one who picked you up and got you out of your rut and this is what I get? When you needed to talk and when you couldn't fall asleep at 4am, I was the one you called and I was the one who picked up my phone when you needed me the most. I didn't care if I only got 2 hours of sleep, what was more important was that everything was ok with you and that you knew I was there for you. Unfortunately, that was probably my biggest mistake... giving you everything when you needed it and being at your beckoning call, something that you didn't have to work for in our relationship, but I did. I never asked much of you and to this day, I never asked much of you... all I wanted was you to appreciate what you had and to know that I fell for you despite what other people told me. I blocked everyone out just to be with you and you can't even appreciate that? No matter how much shit people talked about us, we still made it through and we proved all of them wrong. Despite all the anger I feel towards you, I will never forget all the memories...
+ talking to you for 1-2 hours a day when you were in Brampton
+ when you asked me to transfer to McGivney with you so that we would be closer
+ spending 2 hours everyday after rugby practice just talking
+ trying to make bubble tea in your kitchen
+ "Be Without You", you used to call me every time that video played on BET
+ when I brought baby elliott to your house for family studies
+ the day you drove me to school after my first period spare
+ the first time i slept over at your house and it was just me & you
+ when you held me in your arms all day & wouldn't let me ago on the day i came to your house super early because mom and dad got into a fight
+ when you tried to wash my hair
+ when we played initial D at FMP for like 2 hours
+ the way you used to always hug me & kiss my forehead
+ the first time you told me you loved me, face to face
+ the voicemsgs you always used to leave me on Friday nights
+ helping you clean your basement every saturday
+ the way you would look at me just to make me smile
+ telling kraemer I had a dr appointment, but really coming to see you
+ the 4XL tee I slept in
+ falling asleep in your arms
+ the way you always used to brush the hair out of my face when it was windy
+ sharing our dreams with each other
+ the way we talked about starting a family
+ when you used to call me just to vent out
+ the time we were doing laundry together and you told me that if I didn't clear out the dust pan thing, that the house would explode
+ the times we used to juice together
+ the way we used to fight and always make up
+ the nights we talked for hours on the phone until i fell asleep
+ the times you skipped 4th just to be with me on my lunch and eventually you dropped 4th period
+ play fights
+ talking about cars =)
+ trying to figure out how to write your resume
+ the times i spent at your house every morning because i had a spare
+ the first time you came home from Brampton & i ran and jumped into your arms
... i miss them all...
I've learned so much from being with you, and one thing that I learned is to never let someone bring you down and to stomp all over you... and NEVER let anyone treat you like shit because you're worth more than that and you should never have to bring yourself down to be on the same page as someone else. and NEVER make someone a priority when you're only an option. I regret being so vulnerable with you because I've changed so much ever since I started going out with you. I've become so much more ignorant to other people's opinions, but in the end, everyone was right... I should have left you a long time ago. The weird thing is that I knew everyone was right all along, but I just failed to acknowledge it because love is blind. I was so blind to see what was going on, that I should have known. There was something that was always pulling me back to you, and even now I don't know what it was, but all I know is that you meant something to me and no matter how hard I want to let go, I'll never forget about you. You hurt me so many damn times, but I kept on taking you back... why? I was the one who was made to look like the fool in the end, not you, but ultimately I am the stronger person because I know what i want and I can come to terms with myself and admitt that I had madd love for you. Its funny that you say that I can get any guy I want, but you just never realized that all along, it was only you I wanted to be with. I punked off every single guy knowing that they would probably treat me 100x better than you did, but you made me weak and I kept on taking you back because we dealt with enough things that it takes a person a life time to experience. I realize that maybe this isn't our time to be together, but at the same time is this the end? or is just the beginning? Maybe our relationship dragged on for longer than it was destined to be. I don't regret anything about our relationship, but instead I look at it as a lifelong experience and lesson that will stay with me forever. You might have treated me like shit, but if you gave me the world, I wouldn't have stayed by your side. Love hurts... it really does, but when you find that someone, no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much it frustrates you, its all worth it. Falling in love hurts, but BEING in love is amazing.
Must be nice
Having someone who understands the life you live
Must be nice
Having someone who's slow to take and quick to give
Must be nice
Having someone who sticks around when the rough times get thick
someone who's smile is bright enough to make the projects feel like a mansion
Must be nice
Having someone who loves you despite your faults
Must be nice
Having someone who talks the talk but also walks the walk
Must be nice
Having someone who understands that a thug has feelings too
Someone who loves you for sho'
You just remember to never let 'em go
Even when your hustling days are gone
She'll be by your side still holding on
Even when those 20's stop spinning
And all those gold-digging women disappear
She'll still be here
Must be nice
Having someone you can come home to from a long day of work
Must be nice
Having someone you don't have to show they know exactly where it hurts
Must be nice
Having someone who trusts you despite what they've heard
Someone as mighty as a lion but still as gentle as a bluebird
Must be nice
Having someone you don't have to tell you don't want to be alone
Must be nice
Having someone you can grow old with until God calls ya'll home
Must be nice
Having someone who understands that a thug has feelings too
Someone who loves you for sho'
You never let 'em go
.::: I was there for you through thick & thin,
put your needs before my own &
I had madd love for you despite it all.
U dun kno... RESPECT :::.
*Since we separated I know you'll never find another chick like me
That's why I stay up on your mind*
I can't believe you.
Cuz you never done anything that I asked of you.
Always talking like I can't do right.
Blaming me for everything and that just ain't right.
Cuz I...
Cuz I can't do this alone (I don't know what to do)
Alone (I'm tryna stay with you)
It's not all about you
Boy, I can't do this alone (You're making this harder)
Alone (Boy, i'm about to leave you..)
This is dedicated to you...
So the past few days have been the most confusing days of my life, I guess I saw the signs, but being who I am I guess I just chose to deny everything because it was the fear of facing reality, the truth. Its been 17 months since the first day you asked me out, and its been those same 17 months that I've been in love and because of that I gave my all to you and I gave you my love. Its also been 17 months since I have realized that I could feel so strongly for a person and sacrifice my priorities to make you happy.
It was just yesterday that things ended for good, why? I should have known, those 3 days of ignoring my calls, my voicemsgs and my texts to you... those were all signs, but yet for some reason I had a tinge of hope remaining, that just maybe things were going to work out. But I was wrong, it was just yesterday that you had a the audacity to make your cousin call me to break the news to me. Hearing that you were done with me and that you no longer wanted to talk to me, frustrated me because you disrespected me in all aspects. You couldn't stir up the courage to tell me yourself and after 17 months, I thought that maybe, just maybe our relationship meant something to you. Like you said before, our relationship is between us and I agree, but if its just between us, how are you getting your cousin to call me and tell me that you no longer want to talk to me? What kills it the most, is that everyone else knew what was going on, but me. You dragged the situation on for 3 days, and within those 3 days I thought that you were just too busy to answer my calls or to even reply to one of my msgs, but instead you had all the time in the world to just pick up the phone when i called and to tell me yourself that we were done, but no, you couldn't. Instead you had the audacity to make other people pick up your phone and make up stupid excuses for you.
It was just yesterday that you really broke my heart because you did not think twice about breaking up with me, you were so sure of it, that nothing crossed your mind... you just ended it, our relationship and our friendship. What makes me mad is that you fail to realize that even though we had problems in our relationship, there was never a time where we didn't talk about it or tried to make things work. You fail to realize everything that I've done for you, and not only that, you fail to realize that I supported you no matter what you did and no matter how much trouble you got yourself into. In the end, I was the one who picked you up and got you out of your rut and this is what I get? When you needed to talk and when you couldn't fall asleep at 4am, I was the one you called and I was the one who picked up my phone when you needed me the most. I didn't care if I only got 2 hours of sleep, what was more important was that everything was ok with you and that you knew I was there for you. Unfortunately, that was probably my biggest mistake... giving you everything when you needed it and being at your beckoning call, something that you didn't have to work for in our relationship, but I did. I never asked much of you and to this day, I never asked much of you... all I wanted was you to appreciate what you had and to know that I fell for you despite what other people told me. I blocked everyone out just to be with you and you can't even appreciate that? No matter how much shit people talked about us, we still made it through and we proved all of them wrong. Despite all the anger I feel towards you, I will never forget all the memories...
+ talking to you for 1-2 hours a day when you were in Brampton
+ when you asked me to transfer to McGivney with you so that we would be closer
+ spending 2 hours everyday after rugby practice just talking
+ trying to make bubble tea in your kitchen
+ "Be Without You", you used to call me every time that video played on BET
+ when I brought baby elliott to your house for family studies
+ the day you drove me to school after my first period spare
+ the first time i slept over at your house and it was just me & you
+ when you held me in your arms all day & wouldn't let me ago on the day i came to your house super early because mom and dad got into a fight
+ when you tried to wash my hair
+ when we played initial D at FMP for like 2 hours
+ the way you used to always hug me & kiss my forehead
+ the first time you told me you loved me, face to face
+ the voicemsgs you always used to leave me on Friday nights
+ helping you clean your basement every saturday
+ the way you would look at me just to make me smile
+ telling kraemer I had a dr appointment, but really coming to see you
+ the 4XL tee I slept in
+ falling asleep in your arms
+ the way you always used to brush the hair out of my face when it was windy
+ sharing our dreams with each other
+ the way we talked about starting a family
+ when you used to call me just to vent out
+ the time we were doing laundry together and you told me that if I didn't clear out the dust pan thing, that the house would explode
+ the times we used to juice together
+ the way we used to fight and always make up
+ the nights we talked for hours on the phone until i fell asleep
+ the times you skipped 4th just to be with me on my lunch and eventually you dropped 4th period
+ play fights
+ talking about cars =)
+ trying to figure out how to write your resume
+ the times i spent at your house every morning because i had a spare
+ the first time you came home from Brampton & i ran and jumped into your arms
... i miss them all...
I've learned so much from being with you, and one thing that I learned is to never let someone bring you down and to stomp all over you... and NEVER let anyone treat you like shit because you're worth more than that and you should never have to bring yourself down to be on the same page as someone else. and NEVER make someone a priority when you're only an option. I regret being so vulnerable with you because I've changed so much ever since I started going out with you. I've become so much more ignorant to other people's opinions, but in the end, everyone was right... I should have left you a long time ago. The weird thing is that I knew everyone was right all along, but I just failed to acknowledge it because love is blind. I was so blind to see what was going on, that I should have known. There was something that was always pulling me back to you, and even now I don't know what it was, but all I know is that you meant something to me and no matter how hard I want to let go, I'll never forget about you. You hurt me so many damn times, but I kept on taking you back... why? I was the one who was made to look like the fool in the end, not you, but ultimately I am the stronger person because I know what i want and I can come to terms with myself and admitt that I had madd love for you. Its funny that you say that I can get any guy I want, but you just never realized that all along, it was only you I wanted to be with. I punked off every single guy knowing that they would probably treat me 100x better than you did, but you made me weak and I kept on taking you back because we dealt with enough things that it takes a person a life time to experience. I realize that maybe this isn't our time to be together, but at the same time is this the end? or is just the beginning? Maybe our relationship dragged on for longer than it was destined to be. I don't regret anything about our relationship, but instead I look at it as a lifelong experience and lesson that will stay with me forever. You might have treated me like shit, but if you gave me the world, I wouldn't have stayed by your side. Love hurts... it really does, but when you find that someone, no matter how much it hurts, no matter how much it frustrates you, its all worth it. Falling in love hurts, but BEING in love is amazing.
Must be nice
Having someone who understands the life you live
Must be nice
Having someone who's slow to take and quick to give
Must be nice
Having someone who sticks around when the rough times get thick
someone who's smile is bright enough to make the projects feel like a mansion
Must be nice
Having someone who loves you despite your faults
Must be nice
Having someone who talks the talk but also walks the walk
Must be nice
Having someone who understands that a thug has feelings too
Someone who loves you for sho'
You just remember to never let 'em go
Even when your hustling days are gone
She'll be by your side still holding on
Even when those 20's stop spinning
And all those gold-digging women disappear
She'll still be here
Must be nice
Having someone you can come home to from a long day of work
Must be nice
Having someone you don't have to show they know exactly where it hurts
Must be nice
Having someone who trusts you despite what they've heard
Someone as mighty as a lion but still as gentle as a bluebird
Must be nice
Having someone you don't have to tell you don't want to be alone
Must be nice
Having someone you can grow old with until God calls ya'll home
Must be nice
Having someone who understands that a thug has feelings too
Someone who loves you for sho'
You never let 'em go
.::: I was there for you through thick & thin,
put your needs before my own &
I had madd love for you despite it all.
U dun kno... RESPECT :::.
*Since we separated I know you'll never find another chick like me
That's why I stay up on your mind*