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*yawn* so tired today... haven't really caught up on any sleep and i couldn't sleep in this morning because i did volunteering from 9-3 and so i had to wake up early, a bit too early if you asked me. anyways so much has been going on, things have changed, mom has been pissing me off and just the fact that exams are coming up and summatives and everything are all due in the near future.
first off let me say that because noel has been occupying most of my time in the past month, school hasn't been a huge priority for me in my life, but then again i hate it. i mean believe me when i say he's been occupying most my time because in the past month and a bit, i've never been home earlier than 6 from school and then when i get home i eat, shower, do my homework or at least make an attempt and talk to him for hours on the phone as well as the few special others. and so because my mom isn't use to seeing my marks as low as they are now, she has decided to come down hard on me and make my life harder. basically in short, she won't let me go out tonight to the unionville fest with everyone for a few hours because she thinks that i could spend those few hours doing homework, like math but in my honest opinion its not like i'm going to be doing that anyways at home, so in short, i should be able to go because i could always do my homework later or if she could drive me home right now from the library then maybe i'll be able to get some stuff done. GOSH... she's ruining my life! i need the summer to come so that i can just go away and not even have a bother in the world from the parentals.
secondly, i am now SINGLE and INDEPENDENT, meaning that i am no longer going out with noel, well at least it hink not. things with him have been ubberly confusing. first let me start off by saying that what happens between you and me are only to be dealt with between you and me and nobody else. so like i was saying things have been ubberly confusing and just stressful. yesterday i was away all day at a rugby tounrament at thornlea and my oh my was it so much fun! i love our team... we're like a family! anyways so i got back around 4ish and went inside the school to go to the washroom before catching the bus to go home and so as i walk into the school, jackie, derrick and one more other guy was sitting at a table in the foyer and jackie was like "yo katrina, i need to tell you something about noel" and so in the back of my mind i knew things were going to be over since we've been talking a lot about it lately and we've both been needing space just to think things through before making a final decision. so as i came back from the washroom i went to jackie and the guys and i was like ok so what do you guys need to tell me and they all looked at each other they were like no you do it, no you do it and so on and so finally jackie was like noel told me to tell you that he doesn't want to go out with you anymore and i was like alright that's fine. and jackie was like so you're ok with this all? and i was like yah why shouldnt' i be... i knew it had to happen sometime soon so better now then later and then they all went silent. so i walked outside and as i was leaving so was jackie and derrick and the other guy and then they went across the street to the house were they all smoke and sitting on the steps is noel! first of all... be a man and tell me things be yourself, don't have other people do it for you especially breaking up with a girl! so then i was like ok is he retarded? and then i went back inside to go grab a bite to eat and noel calls so i picked up and he was just talking to me like nothing had ever happened and it was as if we were still going out and everything was normal. so i went home and i was like ok change of plans tonight, since i'm not going out with noel anymore we're not going out to the movies tonight so i'll go to denise's for her farewell party and that's exactly what i did. at about 10ish, dave was like someone's phone is beeping and its coming from this bag so i checked and i had a missed call and guess who it was??? DUN DUN DUN... it was noel! boy does that man have nerve! so i called him back and yuri picked up the phone and he was like why the fuck did you and noel not go out tonight? you dithed him and you dind't even call him about plans. and i was like what??? i'm like jackie told me after rugby that noel didn't want to go out with me anymore so i fully assumed that we weren't going to go out tonight if we weren't dealing anymore. and then yuri was like yo someone tell this girl something and then he just hung up. so from all of this i really don't know what's happening at all! like are we over or aren't we because nobody seems to know what's going on. i mean why would we wtill be going out to the movies if we just broke it off and why would yuri no nothing about it considering that noel tells him everything that happens between me and him. oh i'm so confused about what's going on. and the weirdest thing ever, noel actually went to class yesterday during 4th period (my lunch) for the first time in a month o basically ever since we've been going out because he usally skips that period t spend it with me since the only other time that we got to spend with each other was after rugby practice. weird is it not? anyways so now i'm all confused with no answer and honestly... i would love to know what's going on! i just hate the fact that he can never tell me anything on his own, he always has to get other people to do it for him because he can't do it himself... argh!
anwyays i'll write more later, i just gotta chill and take it easy. but nonetheless i'm going to call him tonight to see what's going on... GOSH!
xoxo
first off let me say that because noel has been occupying most of my time in the past month, school hasn't been a huge priority for me in my life, but then again i hate it. i mean believe me when i say he's been occupying most my time because in the past month and a bit, i've never been home earlier than 6 from school and then when i get home i eat, shower, do my homework or at least make an attempt and talk to him for hours on the phone as well as the few special others. and so because my mom isn't use to seeing my marks as low as they are now, she has decided to come down hard on me and make my life harder. basically in short, she won't let me go out tonight to the unionville fest with everyone for a few hours because she thinks that i could spend those few hours doing homework, like math but in my honest opinion its not like i'm going to be doing that anyways at home, so in short, i should be able to go because i could always do my homework later or if she could drive me home right now from the library then maybe i'll be able to get some stuff done. GOSH... she's ruining my life! i need the summer to come so that i can just go away and not even have a bother in the world from the parentals.
secondly, i am now SINGLE and INDEPENDENT, meaning that i am no longer going out with noel, well at least it hink not. things with him have been ubberly confusing. first let me start off by saying that what happens between you and me are only to be dealt with between you and me and nobody else. so like i was saying things have been ubberly confusing and just stressful. yesterday i was away all day at a rugby tounrament at thornlea and my oh my was it so much fun! i love our team... we're like a family! anyways so i got back around 4ish and went inside the school to go to the washroom before catching the bus to go home and so as i walk into the school, jackie, derrick and one more other guy was sitting at a table in the foyer and jackie was like "yo katrina, i need to tell you something about noel" and so in the back of my mind i knew things were going to be over since we've been talking a lot about it lately and we've both been needing space just to think things through before making a final decision. so as i came back from the washroom i went to jackie and the guys and i was like ok so what do you guys need to tell me and they all looked at each other they were like no you do it, no you do it and so on and so finally jackie was like noel told me to tell you that he doesn't want to go out with you anymore and i was like alright that's fine. and jackie was like so you're ok with this all? and i was like yah why shouldnt' i be... i knew it had to happen sometime soon so better now then later and then they all went silent. so i walked outside and as i was leaving so was jackie and derrick and the other guy and then they went across the street to the house were they all smoke and sitting on the steps is noel! first of all... be a man and tell me things be yourself, don't have other people do it for you especially breaking up with a girl! so then i was like ok is he retarded? and then i went back inside to go grab a bite to eat and noel calls so i picked up and he was just talking to me like nothing had ever happened and it was as if we were still going out and everything was normal. so i went home and i was like ok change of plans tonight, since i'm not going out with noel anymore we're not going out to the movies tonight so i'll go to denise's for her farewell party and that's exactly what i did. at about 10ish, dave was like someone's phone is beeping and its coming from this bag so i checked and i had a missed call and guess who it was??? DUN DUN DUN... it was noel! boy does that man have nerve! so i called him back and yuri picked up the phone and he was like why the fuck did you and noel not go out tonight? you dithed him and you dind't even call him about plans. and i was like what??? i'm like jackie told me after rugby that noel didn't want to go out with me anymore so i fully assumed that we weren't going to go out tonight if we weren't dealing anymore. and then yuri was like yo someone tell this girl something and then he just hung up. so from all of this i really don't know what's happening at all! like are we over or aren't we because nobody seems to know what's going on. i mean why would we wtill be going out to the movies if we just broke it off and why would yuri no nothing about it considering that noel tells him everything that happens between me and him. oh i'm so confused about what's going on. and the weirdest thing ever, noel actually went to class yesterday during 4th period (my lunch) for the first time in a month o basically ever since we've been going out because he usally skips that period t spend it with me since the only other time that we got to spend with each other was after rugby practice. weird is it not? anyways so now i'm all confused with no answer and honestly... i would love to know what's going on! i just hate the fact that he can never tell me anything on his own, he always has to get other people to do it for him because he can't do it himself... argh!
anwyays i'll write more later, i just gotta chill and take it easy. but nonetheless i'm going to call him tonight to see what's going on... GOSH!
xoxo