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things happen for a reason, although we never end up really understanding that until the end. i've come to know that change is enivitable, but i didn't know things were going to change this quickly. i thought that this was something that was actually going to work and i was so positive about it. maybe this is just a phase, but what if its not? maybe things were meant to be this way. although i've fallen deeper ever since things took a turn, i never thought it would get to where it is now, the very pit of it all. if this is a phase, then i'll take it as a forwarning for next time, but if its not, then i really don't understand why it had to work out like this. like i said before, i know things happen for a reason, but that reason always seems to be left unknown even after the fact things happen.
again i think to myself that this was a mistake, but then again if i never went through with it i would have always wondered "what if". i mean i haven't lost anything going through with it, but at the same time, what have i really gained? throughout the past few weeks, i've come in aquaintence with the feeling of being cared for, loved for and protected and just having someone there for you all the time no matter what, and that's something i've always missed and that's something that makes you feel on an all time high. given the opportunity to have that, i would have never said no, not even thinking about it now back to the beginning when it all started.
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again i think to myself that this was a mistake, but then again if i never went through with it i would have always wondered "what if". i mean i haven't lost anything going through with it, but at the same time, what have i really gained? throughout the past few weeks, i've come in aquaintence with the feeling of being cared for, loved for and protected and just having someone there for you all the time no matter what, and that's something i've always missed and that's something that makes you feel on an all time high. given the opportunity to have that, i would have never said no, not even thinking about it now back to the beginning when it all started.
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