i wish i may, i wish i might...
chad michael murray is quite the attractive guy. and hilary duff gets to kiss him. with full out toungage. i'll admit, i'm jealous. like i said, he's sehr attractiv.
i don't know why i'm up right now. i'll be regretting it in the morning. i'm waking up at 6:30 so that i can be awake for registering for classes at 7:00. i hope i get all the ones i want, just because they are classes i need to get done. it won't be too exciting of a semester, that's for sure. probabiblyt and statistics, history of math, research methods, microbiology, and children's literature. i'm excited for children's lit. obviously. and history of math should be interesting; george is teaching it and it counts toward my minor. at the end of next semester, i'll have completed my math minor and can make that official. microbiology is just for my LSR's. i wanted to get my lab course done with and that was one of the few classes that seemed interesting. methods is for psych, so i can get onto the more interesting courses. and prob/stats is just because geometry won't be offered until my senior year, and i'm not sure if i'll be able to fit it in then. so screw it. i have a few back ups. i'm obviousy always prepared.
and so i am awake right now, at 2:15 in the morning. when i really shouldn't be. but my mind just doesn't seem to be tired right now. it's wide awake, even though my body is like sleeeeep... we need sleeeeeep.
i feel like i need a good cry. or a good yell. i have pent up emotions in me right now. i'm angry with some people, upset with others, feeling abandoned by some other people. just a lot of emotions all directed at people that i should really get out. but the kids here, i still don't feel as if i'm at that point where i can feel comfortable bitching people out. i'm not good at expressing myself. well, my inner self. my thoughts and whatnot. i usually dont' tell people anything. so i don't feel comfortabel telling certain people here what i think at the moment. it's not like it'll matter for long anyways. only 5 more weeks, exactly, and i'll be home. and then i'm sure i'll stay talkign to people while i'm home in may. but once i'm at camp, it'll be goodbye st. mike's, just like it's always been goodbye everyone. an dthen when august rolls around, i'll have to start all over again. it's the way my life works, and i'm ok with it. i need those two months at camp more than anything else.
speaking of the summer. i'm not planning on sitting aroudn doing nothing. i wanna get a job substitute teaching during may (note to self, get on that.) at good old gilbert h. hood. and then i'm off to precamp on june 15th (or is it 14th? i forget the exact date) and won't really be home until august 8th. except for a few weekends here and there. if you get bored, feel free to visit me at camp. and then, i'm hoping to be a student leader on TREK this summer, so i'd be leaving on the 18th i think the application said. application's due on friday, so i really need to do that soon. although, i jsut got the email about it today, so it's not like i'm behind. besides,l i've picked up the app and everything. i hope i get that. it would be loads of fun. so yeah, i'm planning on keeping my summer busy. the days i am home will be spent cleanign my room and getting it ready to turn back into an office for my dad. so let's make plans.
i saw this movie tonight. i don't even know wha twords to use to descirbe the way it makes me feel. i feel enlightened, i'm inshock, i'mamazed, terrified, sad, disguested, hopeful, motivated. it was jsut... i don't even know. i almost cried. the guy next to me did cry. full out broek down. i wish i coudl do that. i felt it inside. i'm not heartless. i just don't cry well. i'm sleeping otuside on april 29th. on a street in burlington. solves the problem of what i'll be doing on P-day, since i'm not intending to get smashed. i'm willing to sleepoutside for these childrn. i boughthe dvd offline, because i didn't have the cash on me to buy it riht after. it comes with two copies, so you can share the toher. i think i might send it to church, see if they want a cause. the whole organization is run by kids just a few years older than me. they showed th movie at unh just the other day. i wish you'd gone. and if you did, awesome. i came back to my room afterwards, and just sat there for about ten minutes, not doing anything. except buying the dvd and looking at the website. it's intnese. if you're intrested in seeing this movie, talk to me. i'll loan you my copy. go to www.invisiblechildren.com. i want to chang the world. not just with this one issue. but i want to fix everything. but it's impossible. there will always be poverty. unforutnately, there isn't always hope.
i'm waking up 4 hours from now. my mind is still not tired. i just want the weeknd to be here, so i can get my life in order. i feel so discombobutlated. i rememebr the first time i lerned that word. it was in 8th grade. no, 7th grade. with that substitue in my english class. when we did ender's game for an entire trimester. i coudlnt' pronounce it for the longest time. because i didn't know what it meant. i just remmebr matt using it one day and i wa finally found out what it meant. yeah. my mind is so jumbled up right now. i have no real problems, except for all those emotions i have for certain people. maybe i'll try to lseeo now. and if i'm still awake in half an hour, i'll rite those thougths out. not so you can all read them, of course. they be private, mon.
good night moon.
i don't know why i'm up right now. i'll be regretting it in the morning. i'm waking up at 6:30 so that i can be awake for registering for classes at 7:00. i hope i get all the ones i want, just because they are classes i need to get done. it won't be too exciting of a semester, that's for sure. probabiblyt and statistics, history of math, research methods, microbiology, and children's literature. i'm excited for children's lit. obviously. and history of math should be interesting; george is teaching it and it counts toward my minor. at the end of next semester, i'll have completed my math minor and can make that official. microbiology is just for my LSR's. i wanted to get my lab course done with and that was one of the few classes that seemed interesting. methods is for psych, so i can get onto the more interesting courses. and prob/stats is just because geometry won't be offered until my senior year, and i'm not sure if i'll be able to fit it in then. so screw it. i have a few back ups. i'm obviousy always prepared.
and so i am awake right now, at 2:15 in the morning. when i really shouldn't be. but my mind just doesn't seem to be tired right now. it's wide awake, even though my body is like sleeeeep... we need sleeeeeep.
i feel like i need a good cry. or a good yell. i have pent up emotions in me right now. i'm angry with some people, upset with others, feeling abandoned by some other people. just a lot of emotions all directed at people that i should really get out. but the kids here, i still don't feel as if i'm at that point where i can feel comfortable bitching people out. i'm not good at expressing myself. well, my inner self. my thoughts and whatnot. i usually dont' tell people anything. so i don't feel comfortabel telling certain people here what i think at the moment. it's not like it'll matter for long anyways. only 5 more weeks, exactly, and i'll be home. and then i'm sure i'll stay talkign to people while i'm home in may. but once i'm at camp, it'll be goodbye st. mike's, just like it's always been goodbye everyone. an dthen when august rolls around, i'll have to start all over again. it's the way my life works, and i'm ok with it. i need those two months at camp more than anything else.
speaking of the summer. i'm not planning on sitting aroudn doing nothing. i wanna get a job substitute teaching during may (note to self, get on that.) at good old gilbert h. hood. and then i'm off to precamp on june 15th (or is it 14th? i forget the exact date) and won't really be home until august 8th. except for a few weekends here and there. if you get bored, feel free to visit me at camp. and then, i'm hoping to be a student leader on TREK this summer, so i'd be leaving on the 18th i think the application said. application's due on friday, so i really need to do that soon. although, i jsut got the email about it today, so it's not like i'm behind. besides,l i've picked up the app and everything. i hope i get that. it would be loads of fun. so yeah, i'm planning on keeping my summer busy. the days i am home will be spent cleanign my room and getting it ready to turn back into an office for my dad. so let's make plans.
i saw this movie tonight. i don't even know wha twords to use to descirbe the way it makes me feel. i feel enlightened, i'm inshock, i'mamazed, terrified, sad, disguested, hopeful, motivated. it was jsut... i don't even know. i almost cried. the guy next to me did cry. full out broek down. i wish i coudl do that. i felt it inside. i'm not heartless. i just don't cry well. i'm sleeping otuside on april 29th. on a street in burlington. solves the problem of what i'll be doing on P-day, since i'm not intending to get smashed. i'm willing to sleepoutside for these childrn. i boughthe dvd offline, because i didn't have the cash on me to buy it riht after. it comes with two copies, so you can share the toher. i think i might send it to church, see if they want a cause. the whole organization is run by kids just a few years older than me. they showed th movie at unh just the other day. i wish you'd gone. and if you did, awesome. i came back to my room afterwards, and just sat there for about ten minutes, not doing anything. except buying the dvd and looking at the website. it's intnese. if you're intrested in seeing this movie, talk to me. i'll loan you my copy. go to www.invisiblechildren.com. i want to chang the world. not just with this one issue. but i want to fix everything. but it's impossible. there will always be poverty. unforutnately, there isn't always hope.
i'm waking up 4 hours from now. my mind is still not tired. i just want the weeknd to be here, so i can get my life in order. i feel so discombobutlated. i rememebr the first time i lerned that word. it was in 8th grade. no, 7th grade. with that substitue in my english class. when we did ender's game for an entire trimester. i coudlnt' pronounce it for the longest time. because i didn't know what it meant. i just remmebr matt using it one day and i wa finally found out what it meant. yeah. my mind is so jumbled up right now. i have no real problems, except for all those emotions i have for certain people. maybe i'll try to lseeo now. and if i'm still awake in half an hour, i'll rite those thougths out. not so you can all read them, of course. they be private, mon.
good night moon.