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Well I was messing around online watching music video's before I went to get Jennifer, and I watched Good Charlotte's video for "Hold On" I am not a fan of Good Charlotte really but that song makes me think of my friend Pixie or Lindsay she was the kewlest person, always bouncy and happy hardly ever upset ot annoyed about anything, the person I used to go to when I was upset or wanted to laugh, or just wanted to have fun and talk, we would just hangout with our dogs she had a hugh white "Snowball" and i had a black and tan "spike" lol and we just had fun walking around town talking and doing stupd stuff, she was a cute little girl with her piercings and tattoo's and big pants and crazy shirts, and don't forget the sunglasses, even when she didn't need them and her bright blonde spiked up hair, with a smile to die for and more energy than the sun had time...she was a very strong person who was going through alot and was also away at school and didn't get to come home as much as she would have liked, I got a phone call from here saying she was in town and she did'nt have alot of time so she asked me not to tell everyone cacuse she didn't want them to get mad at her, so I didn't tell anyone else, and then after she went back I got two calls from her but when I called back she was at work and when she called I was asleep or at work, and maybe two weeks after not getting in touch with her and none of our friends really hearing from her either, Sid my pretend brother came up to me at work and told me to get to his house sa soon as I got off work and he looked very mad. I thought he was upset with me but didn't know why, so I got upset and asked what was wrong and he told me that our Pixie had hung her self and they found her that morning so we where both there in front of all my customers balling crying and I just walked out and we went to his house and called everyone from here and told them and made arrangements to drive up to go to the funeral, we went and it was so weird they had her in our marching band uniforms from NOGA, and had her pictures everywhere, and her parents played and sang Amazing Grace using her guitar, and then we drove an hour away to Zebloun N.C to where she would be burried I could not watch that I just sat beside Kandi's car and cried and Sid came and got me up and kinda carried me up to get a rose when it was over, we left and came home, and everything is suposed to go back to the way it was before but it didn't. I have lost my whole family to death and friends also but this was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and I am so mad at her for leaving us and doing that she was almost through with her EMT and had a good life ahead of her...:( I miss her soooo much and am haunted by her everyday...

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched they must be felt with the heart"

IN LOVING MEMORY OF LINDSAY PIXIE MARIE WILLIAMS....MISS U BUNCHES !!!!