Loss of Trust...
Recently my mom has been getting angry b/c i stay after school and she doesn't believe me when i say that i'm hanging out with friends. Instead she thinks that i have a boyfriend which i don't for a fact. I feel really bad that my mom has lost her tust in me and so now i'm punished until she gains her trust in me again or if she's in a good mood. Well, i kinda do see why i should be punished. Last friday she didn't go to work b/c she was going to a concert. Anyway, i was at school talking w/ my friends and when i got home she was so disappointed b/c she wanted me to be there to eat dinner as a family which occasionally occurs each year (usually for holidays) See b/c my mom works most of the week and during the evenings i rarely get to see or talk to her. And on weekends she is usually out running errands or i'm not home b/c i go w/ my dad. Anyway, on Monday i left early to school in order to print out my history paper and b/c i didn't want to sit around waiting for my brother who takes an eternity getting ready for school. When i left, my mom called me and said what the hell is going on with me and why i'm I behaving like this. I thought to myself that i haven't done anything wrong and that she has lost all trust at me now. I guess it's my fault for talking to her about Kurt and the flowers. She probably thinks i'm hanging out w/ him. But the truth is that i barely know him and i really don't feel any emotion for him. I think of him as a friend. I feel bad but my heart doesn't feel anymore than that. Then that same day she said that she needed to talk to me but actually she didn't. I guess i'm just gonna let things calm down before i can talk to her again and ask to go out with my friends. I hope my friends don't feel bad b/c they had nothing to do w/ this since it was my choice to stay afterschool b/c i can't really talk to them online (My brother doesn't let me since i have to help w/ the bill) or during school b/c we don't have any classes together. My mom isn't so bad, i mean i really love her and i have to understand that i just have to follow her rules and wishes as long as i'm living in her house.