decisions
Yes.. it seems that I feel like ranting again.
It feels as if I'm just as good student as last year. Even thought I use so much English every day my school essays are full of mistakes. I'm now under average in English and I really don't know what to do.. Maybe I'll just read grammar all day long and write and write and write.
Then there is the whole problem with relationships. I know that I'm a lousy friend since I don't spend almost any time with my friends. School just eats the time and I'm such a nature who needs to be alone too. Sometimes it feels as if I'm drawn to two directions; to spend more time with friends and cut the time off of my sleeping hours. When I hear my people how they have just been in movies and hanging around with friends having fun and playing games, laughing and even flirting, it feels so painful. I'd love to do all those things too. I just keep to grow apart of everyone. People seem to get impression that I don't care about them. But I really do! It's not only that I'm such a geek when I use hours for schoolwork. I am and I have always been just slower than average people.
I'll have to pull myself together! just ranting about things doesn't make it any better.
It feels as if I'm just as good student as last year. Even thought I use so much English every day my school essays are full of mistakes. I'm now under average in English and I really don't know what to do.. Maybe I'll just read grammar all day long and write and write and write.
Then there is the whole problem with relationships. I know that I'm a lousy friend since I don't spend almost any time with my friends. School just eats the time and I'm such a nature who needs to be alone too. Sometimes it feels as if I'm drawn to two directions; to spend more time with friends and cut the time off of my sleeping hours. When I hear my people how they have just been in movies and hanging around with friends having fun and playing games, laughing and even flirting, it feels so painful. I'd love to do all those things too. I just keep to grow apart of everyone. People seem to get impression that I don't care about them. But I really do! It's not only that I'm such a geek when I use hours for schoolwork. I am and I have always been just slower than average people.
I'll have to pull myself together! just ranting about things doesn't make it any better.