sometimes
i just wish that i had a delete button in my brain
so that i could erase all the memories that i dont want anymore.
all the songs, the movies, the places, the weather...EVERYTHING.
that would make things so much easier on people.
how can you get sad over someone (someone you barely know now) when
they arent even stored in your memory anymore.
he makes it look so easy. hes not new @ this.
hes a heartbreaker.
and i was doing so well.
i think its time to stop speaking to him, again.
it just drives me wild how i can forget his face and his voice and his smile
but never forget the memories we shared.
i never wanted to be this fucking girl
thats always stuck on their ex. (i dont plan on having another anytime soon)
and dwells on the past and what COULD have happend if i had done something different.
i try to look @ it like , "this is how things are meant to be..." and it works for the most part.. but in the long run.. it REALLY sucks.
i always told myself that id be that girl with "whatever, fuck it" attitude.
but its harder than it looks.
i may look and act happy.
but its not always there.
i love my friends though.
and i cant thank you more for being there for me, especially when i was barely there for you
these past 8 months.
thank you so much.
goodnight.
happy holidays.
so that i could erase all the memories that i dont want anymore.
all the songs, the movies, the places, the weather...EVERYTHING.
that would make things so much easier on people.
how can you get sad over someone (someone you barely know now) when
they arent even stored in your memory anymore.
he makes it look so easy. hes not new @ this.
hes a heartbreaker.
and i was doing so well.
i think its time to stop speaking to him, again.
it just drives me wild how i can forget his face and his voice and his smile
but never forget the memories we shared.
i never wanted to be this fucking girl
thats always stuck on their ex. (i dont plan on having another anytime soon)
and dwells on the past and what COULD have happend if i had done something different.
i try to look @ it like , "this is how things are meant to be..." and it works for the most part.. but in the long run.. it REALLY sucks.
i always told myself that id be that girl with "whatever, fuck it" attitude.
but its harder than it looks.
i may look and act happy.
but its not always there.
i love my friends though.
and i cant thank you more for being there for me, especially when i was barely there for you
these past 8 months.
thank you so much.
goodnight.
happy holidays.