Happy Anniversary To Me:
Six years ago today my life was changed in an auto accident caused by someone talking on the cell phone and not paying attention to the road.
My New Year's Resolution is to stop looking for the Magic Bullet; a pill, doctor and/or treatment that will cure me. I accept that what I have to live with has no cure, it is degenerative and I accept that. I will continue on with pain management and have my medications changed or increased as needed. I accept that I have the right not to suffer pain and that the doctors are obligated to treat me.
I resolved from tomorrow not to let the pain be the focal point of my life. Though that is easier said than done.
I resolve that I will do my best to life the rest of my life by improving the quality of my life by taking care of me to the best of my abilities. And this means to:
Eat right
Get enough sleep
Exercise by the yin yoga, tai chi, balance ball and my stationary bike
I resolve that I want to loose 25 pound this year and keep it off
I resolve to begin to really enjoy my life by being the best I can be at doing what I am able to do with reasonable effort and the least amount of pain
I accept the fact that I will not get better and be okay with this.
I resolved to try not to put my pain out there onto my lover, family and friends.
I will try to learn something each day
I will try to be thankful for each day
I resolved to reconnect with my loved ones. I have strayed far away from so many people in my self-imposed isolation but I am not so far away that this would be impossible.
I resolve to work on issues that cause me anger, feelings of rejection, unnecessary drama, stress and get settled into my new state of forced retirement
That's a good start especially today. 6 years of hell and uncertainly. Well it is certain now that I will never work for someone else again but that doesn't prevent me from working for myself by selling my artwork in what every form that is.
Today is another day where I am feeling very good. Things are working out very well for Deb and I. I am not sure what I said to influence her change of attitude and how she is now treating me. But it is a good change and a prediction for our future together. She is really working hard on being flexible and patient. She is working hard on keeping the mean Deb at bay to motivate me to behave and feel how she thinks I should. She is accepting me just the way I am and really that is not too bad. She has been with other women in relationships who were 100 percent healthy and they treated her badly and her needs were not being met. I can do that with one hand tied behind my back. LOL
So I am not certain what the catalyst for change was and is I just accept that it is good and it feels right.
Happy New Year to me. Happy New Year to Deb. To us.
More later,
Kats
My New Year's Resolution is to stop looking for the Magic Bullet; a pill, doctor and/or treatment that will cure me. I accept that what I have to live with has no cure, it is degenerative and I accept that. I will continue on with pain management and have my medications changed or increased as needed. I accept that I have the right not to suffer pain and that the doctors are obligated to treat me.
I resolved from tomorrow not to let the pain be the focal point of my life. Though that is easier said than done.
I resolve that I will do my best to life the rest of my life by improving the quality of my life by taking care of me to the best of my abilities. And this means to:
Eat right
Get enough sleep
Exercise by the yin yoga, tai chi, balance ball and my stationary bike
I resolve that I want to loose 25 pound this year and keep it off
I resolve to begin to really enjoy my life by being the best I can be at doing what I am able to do with reasonable effort and the least amount of pain
I accept the fact that I will not get better and be okay with this.
I resolved to try not to put my pain out there onto my lover, family and friends.
I will try to learn something each day
I will try to be thankful for each day
I resolved to reconnect with my loved ones. I have strayed far away from so many people in my self-imposed isolation but I am not so far away that this would be impossible.
I resolve to work on issues that cause me anger, feelings of rejection, unnecessary drama, stress and get settled into my new state of forced retirement
That's a good start especially today. 6 years of hell and uncertainly. Well it is certain now that I will never work for someone else again but that doesn't prevent me from working for myself by selling my artwork in what every form that is.
Today is another day where I am feeling very good. Things are working out very well for Deb and I. I am not sure what I said to influence her change of attitude and how she is now treating me. But it is a good change and a prediction for our future together. She is really working hard on being flexible and patient. She is working hard on keeping the mean Deb at bay to motivate me to behave and feel how she thinks I should. She is accepting me just the way I am and really that is not too bad. She has been with other women in relationships who were 100 percent healthy and they treated her badly and her needs were not being met. I can do that with one hand tied behind my back. LOL
So I am not certain what the catalyst for change was and is I just accept that it is good and it feels right.
Happy New Year to me. Happy New Year to Deb. To us.
More later,
Kats