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I have been disinterested in technology lately, even though I miss lj terribly. I think of things I'd like to write just about everyday, but I don't for a variety of reasons. Mostly time, then energy, then just a general lack of spirit.
I can't buy a piece of computer luck, it would seem.
Jon spent several days recently, trying to remove a healthy amount of spyware from my laptop. Turns out that he wasn't able to get it all, so I'm still infected. It doesn't seem to impact much other than popping open random ie windows every now and again. Can't really say if there are any other real issues going on behind the scene, so who knows.
The 120 gig drive is gone. After a couple of weeks at a very capable company in the business of recovering data, there is none. 5 years of pictures and many more of music are kissed goodbye (with many tears, of course). The only upside is that it didn't cost us $2k to find out that there is nothing to recover. Jon's theory is that the drive must have been writing when the power outage hit and therefore crashed the heads into the platters, dragging the whole way as it spun down. He's still baffled by the lack of indicating noise during attempted power-ups, but who knows. It's allllll gone.
I'm having a hard time thinking about starting over, with everything. My camera is now five years old, pretty slow and clunky, and I'm just not into taking pictures the way I used to be. I estimate to own about half of the music I lost, and most of the downloaded stuff, I was smart enough to burn to cds, but I got lazy lately, so a lot of the stuff I currently listen to is gone as well. Since I didn't even have a list of all the music I had, I have no idea what's even gone, and very little motivation to start ripping again. Add to that the fact that I'm totally pissed that I spent a good amount of time over the summer to complete my digital music library, ripping the last of my cd's, and now, it's all gone. Fuck it.
I'm (nominally) trying to make things in my life better, but it seems that every time I am mentally ready to make some progress, something comes along to screw it up. I want to start working out again, and I come down with a monumental flu with a chance of a bonus ear infection. I'm ready to start making good on my promises to myself to keep our living space cleaner, and a family emergency pops up. By the time I'm healthy, and have time, I'll be disinterested again and nothing will ever change. I feel like I'll be stuck in this mildly satisfactory life forever.
School is going well, even though I find myself procrastinating grading during the week so that I have tons of work to do over the weekend. Weeks are just sliding by, and I'm always trying to find little places to stick a marker in, so I can look back and feel like it's all been worthwhile.
I'm thinking it's a combination of still being pretty sick and the fact that the weather very suddenly turned crazy-cold that's making me so displeased with everything. I sound really down and bah humbug about everything at the moment, and it doesn't seem like there's lots I can do about it to make it better, so it's just hmmphlghfg. I'll try to post again soon and be a bit more cheerful about things then.
I can't buy a piece of computer luck, it would seem.
Jon spent several days recently, trying to remove a healthy amount of spyware from my laptop. Turns out that he wasn't able to get it all, so I'm still infected. It doesn't seem to impact much other than popping open random ie windows every now and again. Can't really say if there are any other real issues going on behind the scene, so who knows.
The 120 gig drive is gone. After a couple of weeks at a very capable company in the business of recovering data, there is none. 5 years of pictures and many more of music are kissed goodbye (with many tears, of course). The only upside is that it didn't cost us $2k to find out that there is nothing to recover. Jon's theory is that the drive must have been writing when the power outage hit and therefore crashed the heads into the platters, dragging the whole way as it spun down. He's still baffled by the lack of indicating noise during attempted power-ups, but who knows. It's allllll gone.
I'm having a hard time thinking about starting over, with everything. My camera is now five years old, pretty slow and clunky, and I'm just not into taking pictures the way I used to be. I estimate to own about half of the music I lost, and most of the downloaded stuff, I was smart enough to burn to cds, but I got lazy lately, so a lot of the stuff I currently listen to is gone as well. Since I didn't even have a list of all the music I had, I have no idea what's even gone, and very little motivation to start ripping again. Add to that the fact that I'm totally pissed that I spent a good amount of time over the summer to complete my digital music library, ripping the last of my cd's, and now, it's all gone. Fuck it.
I'm (nominally) trying to make things in my life better, but it seems that every time I am mentally ready to make some progress, something comes along to screw it up. I want to start working out again, and I come down with a monumental flu with a chance of a bonus ear infection. I'm ready to start making good on my promises to myself to keep our living space cleaner, and a family emergency pops up. By the time I'm healthy, and have time, I'll be disinterested again and nothing will ever change. I feel like I'll be stuck in this mildly satisfactory life forever.
School is going well, even though I find myself procrastinating grading during the week so that I have tons of work to do over the weekend. Weeks are just sliding by, and I'm always trying to find little places to stick a marker in, so I can look back and feel like it's all been worthwhile.
I'm thinking it's a combination of still being pretty sick and the fact that the weather very suddenly turned crazy-cold that's making me so displeased with everything. I sound really down and bah humbug about everything at the moment, and it doesn't seem like there's lots I can do about it to make it better, so it's just hmmphlghfg. I'll try to post again soon and be a bit more cheerful about things then.