a moment of silence
i would go about my normal entries and start naming off things that happened to me today but it all just seems so pointless right now.
and just to let you all know whats coming up is just a way for me to outlet my emotions.
but some of you may be interested.
today someone mentioned the name matthew shepard to me. before i only knew this name from britney telling me about the laramie project. but unfortunately and im ashamed to say it i never really cared much before, i was to wrapped up in my own petty little problems. i wish i would have seen the bigger picture before, but i guess since nothing like that had ever happened anywhere near where i have lived/live i was just oblivious that something would drive people to be so horribly cruel. i mean the man had his skull smashed in by the butt of a gun then they just left him there to die on a fence?! what is that?! how could someone actually do that to another living breathing thing? its devastating. and what a great person this man must've been, fore his last words were nothing of hate, anger, fear or regret and he was in there for 5 days! no, his last words were "I love you" this has made me relize the freedoms i have come to take for granet, i have such a wonderful life and i am surrounded by more than a handful of people that i believe i could trust with my life. I am free to be who I am, free of ridicule and boundries. I want to get out and do something, i want to make a difference with my life and i dont even care if anyone knows i did it. i would rather leave a dent in the world when i die, like finding the cure or vaccine for some disease (the good kind the kind that will help people) and not have anyone remember me than be remembered for something so increbably pointless (not naming off anything as to not offend anyone)
i know its been said before but, i want to change the world.... i think im going to start taking my live and the things i do with it more seriously, and possibly more living in the moment and regretting it later instead of what i seem to be doing which is regret it before i even do it then end up not doing it at all.
and just to let you all know whats coming up is just a way for me to outlet my emotions.
but some of you may be interested.
today someone mentioned the name matthew shepard to me. before i only knew this name from britney telling me about the laramie project. but unfortunately and im ashamed to say it i never really cared much before, i was to wrapped up in my own petty little problems. i wish i would have seen the bigger picture before, but i guess since nothing like that had ever happened anywhere near where i have lived/live i was just oblivious that something would drive people to be so horribly cruel. i mean the man had his skull smashed in by the butt of a gun then they just left him there to die on a fence?! what is that?! how could someone actually do that to another living breathing thing? its devastating. and what a great person this man must've been, fore his last words were nothing of hate, anger, fear or regret and he was in there for 5 days! no, his last words were "I love you" this has made me relize the freedoms i have come to take for granet, i have such a wonderful life and i am surrounded by more than a handful of people that i believe i could trust with my life. I am free to be who I am, free of ridicule and boundries. I want to get out and do something, i want to make a difference with my life and i dont even care if anyone knows i did it. i would rather leave a dent in the world when i die, like finding the cure or vaccine for some disease (the good kind the kind that will help people) and not have anyone remember me than be remembered for something so increbably pointless (not naming off anything as to not offend anyone)
i know its been said before but, i want to change the world.... i think im going to start taking my live and the things i do with it more seriously, and possibly more living in the moment and regretting it later instead of what i seem to be doing which is regret it before i even do it then end up not doing it at all.