Feeling like I'm at a stand still 😞
I don't feel like myself lately. It's like I'm forcing everything just to make myself believe I'm okay.
There are so many factors and I don't wanna entertain my anxiety so I'm just watching and rewatching stuff.
I remembered the lyrics from the song "Full Swing" by NEWS:
"Even if you come to a standstill
Here is not the end
At the end of hesitation, face forward"
(c) aitmashii@lj
I wish I'd be able to move forward though.
The strongest urge I have right now is to quit job but I'm still hesitating.
There's that thought that it's not a good timing but I'm just not happy anymore. And then I think about how it's difficult to find a job, I need to pay bills and somehow the pay I'm receiving is making me survive and it's practical to stay (even if I have to endure being "verbally" mistreated), and there are some people who are sufferring not having a job and here I am being all dramatic about my demotivation.
I'm so confused and frustrated.