My baby is 6 months old...
It's true. Six months ago almost to the day was my first experience with childbirth. It didn't go exactly as I had hoped and planned, but it barely matters now. My baby is so precious to me. He scoots across the floor awkwardly, pausing to mouth toys and say, "Mnah, nah, nah, nah, nah." He looks up at me and smiles when he hears his name. He loves it when I put my fingers in his mouth to apply counterpressure to his teething gums. He says mama, but doesn't know what it means or why I look at him so blissfully when he says it.
Bill is doing great! I'm so proud of him and love him so dearly. He worked it out so that he's getting a $5/hour raise, working fewer hours (45 instead of 55) and working from home out West or wherever we wish to move! Now we are selling our furniture, including my beloved Baldwin french provincial sideboard spinet piano. Everything, except the crib and rocking chair for baby. We're not even close to having it all sold, but three of the biggest things are on auction on ebay.com and end tomorrow. Phew, will that be a relief! We hope we will make enough money from the auctions to afford the trailer and gas for moving.
Aside from the stress of packing and selling things, I am exceedingly happy. I have the cutest baby in the world who is also a genius. And I have the most thoughtful and hunky man I ever dreamed possible by my side. I am heading toward the place I want to live, to be in the climate I am accustomed to, and Bill will be free to spend more time with our family and pursuing his education, and less time working (though still fulltime). We are really only sacrificing a little compared with the blessings we are receiving!
Since I last wrote here, my kid sister Shayna has been married (October 13, 2006) and had a baby named Braxton; my baby sister Aubrey has been married (June 15, 2007) and is currently in boot camp for the air force national guard; and my older brother Ryan has had his third child, a son named Taft.
My parents have also built their dream house and are living in it in St. George, Utah. My family has been tremendously blessed in so many ways!
I love life! After marrying Bill, my life became much happier, but I still felt that death would be a welcome blessing-- just to be in the presence of my God with all of His love for me and all His children, and to be free of pain and sorrow. But with the addition of my son into our lives, I cannot wish for death at all. Not only do I want to watch him grow and learn, but I want him to know and feel all the LOVE we, his parents, have for him. And in death, that would be almost impossible to relay. I now feel that I must stay alive to make his life whole and happy... at least until he knows how much I love him, and until he no longer needs me. Then I will happily die and enjoy eternity with my wonderful celestial companion, Bill.
These things are much too deep for an online journal, so I curtail my entry and simply say that I am happy and my life has many profound meanings for me and those around me. I am growing and I am learning and I love this Plan of Salvation that I am traveling.
Bill is doing great! I'm so proud of him and love him so dearly. He worked it out so that he's getting a $5/hour raise, working fewer hours (45 instead of 55) and working from home out West or wherever we wish to move! Now we are selling our furniture, including my beloved Baldwin french provincial sideboard spinet piano. Everything, except the crib and rocking chair for baby. We're not even close to having it all sold, but three of the biggest things are on auction on ebay.com and end tomorrow. Phew, will that be a relief! We hope we will make enough money from the auctions to afford the trailer and gas for moving.
Aside from the stress of packing and selling things, I am exceedingly happy. I have the cutest baby in the world who is also a genius. And I have the most thoughtful and hunky man I ever dreamed possible by my side. I am heading toward the place I want to live, to be in the climate I am accustomed to, and Bill will be free to spend more time with our family and pursuing his education, and less time working (though still fulltime). We are really only sacrificing a little compared with the blessings we are receiving!
Since I last wrote here, my kid sister Shayna has been married (October 13, 2006) and had a baby named Braxton; my baby sister Aubrey has been married (June 15, 2007) and is currently in boot camp for the air force national guard; and my older brother Ryan has had his third child, a son named Taft.
My parents have also built their dream house and are living in it in St. George, Utah. My family has been tremendously blessed in so many ways!
I love life! After marrying Bill, my life became much happier, but I still felt that death would be a welcome blessing-- just to be in the presence of my God with all of His love for me and all His children, and to be free of pain and sorrow. But with the addition of my son into our lives, I cannot wish for death at all. Not only do I want to watch him grow and learn, but I want him to know and feel all the LOVE we, his parents, have for him. And in death, that would be almost impossible to relay. I now feel that I must stay alive to make his life whole and happy... at least until he knows how much I love him, and until he no longer needs me. Then I will happily die and enjoy eternity with my wonderful celestial companion, Bill.
These things are much too deep for an online journal, so I curtail my entry and simply say that I am happy and my life has many profound meanings for me and those around me. I am growing and I am learning and I love this Plan of Salvation that I am traveling.