I'd like...
...my family to love me because I'm weird, not in spite of it. I'd like my Dad to proudly attest that I don't fit into a mould rather than tell me he 'doesn't want to know' when I start talking about myself. I think he does love me for it, it's just hard for him to say. He's so didactic and I'm glad we only see each other in small doses sometimes.
As a side note, thinking of cutting my month here short, coming back around the 30th rather than on the 11th of the next month. Largely for reasons of thesis. Thoughts? Ugh I know no one can decide for me :\ It's going to be so stressful when we get down there. Family stuff...there are people in hospital and other people divorcing yet other people. If I stay til the 11th it'll be with Mum's side of the family during the anniversary of my uncle's suicide, which I wasn't able to attend the funeral for. Not really sure how I can help...being here is a weird mix of obligation and guilt and actually feeling good about it. There's going to be so much bullshit heaped upon Xmas and stuff...I don't know whether I'm more likely to write here or back up in QLD. It's really fucking hot up there at the moment >.>...
Also, I really bloody want these shoes: http://www.vegetarian-shoes.co.uk/airseal_footwear/airseal_20_eye_boot_black/10412_p.html
As a side note, thinking of cutting my month here short, coming back around the 30th rather than on the 11th of the next month. Largely for reasons of thesis. Thoughts? Ugh I know no one can decide for me :\ It's going to be so stressful when we get down there. Family stuff...there are people in hospital and other people divorcing yet other people. If I stay til the 11th it'll be with Mum's side of the family during the anniversary of my uncle's suicide, which I wasn't able to attend the funeral for. Not really sure how I can help...being here is a weird mix of obligation and guilt and actually feeling good about it. There's going to be so much bullshit heaped upon Xmas and stuff...I don't know whether I'm more likely to write here or back up in QLD. It's really fucking hot up there at the moment >.>...
Also, I really bloody want these shoes: http://www.vegetarian-shoes.co.uk/airseal_footwear/airseal_20_eye_boot_black/10412_p.html