you've got my only heart
this was probably the best birthday i've had in my entire life. he's amazing. and i'm sitting here in tears because i'm so sad it's over. how pathetic am i? and also, it's the first night in awhile that i've had to sleep by myself which is particularly lonely. i'm writing this now because i don't want to forget a minute of today. i don't really care if anyone reads it or not... but if you want to, here it goes.
he surprised me. he took me to wilmington and the beach. bear in mind that wilmington is a little over 2 hours away. we got in the car, and i had no idea where i was going. on the road, he handed me two presents. both picture frames, the first one was silly- peach and mumbles is our "old couple name" and he perfectly represented that in a picture frame. the next was a picture of us. very sweet. i guessed that we were going to the beach and he said yes. we parked at wrightsville beach and walked out on the sand. probably my favorite place to be, especially with him. then we hop in the car and go see borat, which was hysterical and we had both been wanting to see it for quite some time now. he then took me to his mom's house, in wilmington, probably the cutest house i've ever seen, and he made me dinner and gave me wine. it was amazing. then, as it got dark, we went to these amazing gardens. he knows i'm a "festive" person, and they had christmas lights out and it was just so sweet. then we came back to state and watched happy feet. which was adorable. and what topped it off was that one of the main penguins, his name was mumble. quite the coincidence, and a perfect ending to a perfect day. he's absolutely amazing, and i couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. i've been known to question his feelings for me, and even my feelings towards him, but today solidified how much he does care about me, and i've honestly never really had that before in someone actually worth my time.
i am going to try and go to sleep now and fight the tears. i still can't figure out why i'm crying. i think it's the whole by myself thing. if any of you know me at all you know that i don't do by myself really well. i'm floating on air though, despite the tears because i'm pretty sure that they are based on sheer happiness.
he surprised me. he took me to wilmington and the beach. bear in mind that wilmington is a little over 2 hours away. we got in the car, and i had no idea where i was going. on the road, he handed me two presents. both picture frames, the first one was silly- peach and mumbles is our "old couple name" and he perfectly represented that in a picture frame. the next was a picture of us. very sweet. i guessed that we were going to the beach and he said yes. we parked at wrightsville beach and walked out on the sand. probably my favorite place to be, especially with him. then we hop in the car and go see borat, which was hysterical and we had both been wanting to see it for quite some time now. he then took me to his mom's house, in wilmington, probably the cutest house i've ever seen, and he made me dinner and gave me wine. it was amazing. then, as it got dark, we went to these amazing gardens. he knows i'm a "festive" person, and they had christmas lights out and it was just so sweet. then we came back to state and watched happy feet. which was adorable. and what topped it off was that one of the main penguins, his name was mumble. quite the coincidence, and a perfect ending to a perfect day. he's absolutely amazing, and i couldn't ask for a better boyfriend. i've been known to question his feelings for me, and even my feelings towards him, but today solidified how much he does care about me, and i've honestly never really had that before in someone actually worth my time.
i am going to try and go to sleep now and fight the tears. i still can't figure out why i'm crying. i think it's the whole by myself thing. if any of you know me at all you know that i don't do by myself really well. i'm floating on air though, despite the tears because i'm pretty sure that they are based on sheer happiness.